Hello to all my "Skinny Sisters"!!
Well, I am happy to report that I am feeling sooooo much better today. My tummy is back to normal and I have not cried once today!! This is the first day in about a month that I havent cried and that feels like a victory of sorts for me. Yippee!!
I went to work this morning. I got dressed @ home as usual, went to slip on my favorite Levis and can I just tell you....they feel so comfortable now and are starting to get roomy!!! They were so tight on me for the longest time I wasnt able to wear them, and if I did wear them, I had to wear them with a sweatshirt to conceal my tire that flowed over the waistband, but not today....nosirree!!! I wore a cute little top and those Levis and I felt great in them. No snausage feeling!!! As I have told you all before, I work in a suregery center and we have to wear the provided scrubs for sanitary purposes. So I went to work today, I grabbed my usual scrubs (XL pants & a large top) and I almost couldnt believe it when I put them both on....they are getting really big on me!!! It was the BEST feeling ever!!! I like the roominess now but I think another 10# and I will be reaching for the Large pants & a medium top! Ya know, it really is true what they say....NOTHING FEELS AS GOOD AS THIN FEELS!! Now, by no means am I thin, but you get the jist of what I am saying.
So I am excited to usher in a new year and I cannot wait to watch my transformation in 2011. I am really going to focus on getting me healthy emotionally and physically. I want to look HOT for once in my life and I feel bound and determined that this is gonna be MY year to make it happen!! Oh boy....Look out!!!
Thanks to everyone who made such kind comments while I was going through my hard times this month. I have one more thing that I know is going to happen this month that is going to be sad for me but it is inevitable and I just need to make the phone call & do it. I have been a Sales Director with Mary Kay Cosmetics for 7 yrs. I led my unit to the prestigious $300,000 Circle of achievement in 2006 and we were the #2 Unit in our National Area 2 yrs in a row. Well, the past year, my unit died. I have been trying to resurrect the dead for the past 14 months and I am coming to realize that I am not Jesus and I cannot make them rise from the dead. If we dont meet our production goal of $4,000 this month, I will be forced to resign. As of today, we have a little over $2,000 in and I am not putting the rest in myself without the sales to back it up. It is a heartbreaking decision as I love the company and I love my unit, but I think the time has come when I need to bury the dead and move forward and focus my energy on getting myself healthy again. I am going to have to make that call on Thurs unless a miracle happens between now and then. Say a prayer for me....its not going to be easy to do.
Well, I better get going. Have to pack lunch for tomorrow & get ready for bed.
I love you all so dearly!! Thanks for being my friends!!
((Sherri))
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Monday, December 27, 2010
Its official...I got the flu!
Well, it was an interesting day yesterday. Woke up feeling hot, my legs ached like I did 100 squats and had a bad stomache ache. Ended up spending the day in the bathroom with the intestinal flu....NOT GOOD! I ended up missing our christmas get together with my family yesterday and spent most of the day in bed. That really bummed me out because I love being with my family but I didnt want to share my bug with them. I was up most of the night with the body aches & tummy rumbling and called my boss last night to give her a heads up that if I didnt feel better by morning that I wouldnt be in for work. The last 3 months have been so difficult on me both emotionally & physically. With the problems with my daughter, my husband, the death of my friends husband earlier this month and top it all off dealing with depression.... I really cant wait for 2010 to go!
I feel like Eyore the donkey from Winnie the Pooh lately, hes always down & telling a sad tale. I feel like my life has been a constant downer since Oct. I need a fresh start, a new beginning. because Im just downright exhausted from all of this! Ok, Im done. Thanks for letting me vent. I know that this is all miniscule compared to what others have to endure.
On a weight loss note, I lost 3# and I am officially in Onderland until I start eating again! I was 198.5 as of this morning. Not the best weight loss plan to be on, thats for sure and it will probably find me again once I start eating normally again.
I hope you are all doing good. Thanks for listening and allowing me to vent.
Love
Sherri
I feel like Eyore the donkey from Winnie the Pooh lately, hes always down & telling a sad tale. I feel like my life has been a constant downer since Oct. I need a fresh start, a new beginning. because Im just downright exhausted from all of this! Ok, Im done. Thanks for letting me vent. I know that this is all miniscule compared to what others have to endure.
On a weight loss note, I lost 3# and I am officially in Onderland until I start eating again! I was 198.5 as of this morning. Not the best weight loss plan to be on, thats for sure and it will probably find me again once I start eating normally again.
I hope you are all doing good. Thanks for listening and allowing me to vent.
Love
Sherri
Sunday, December 26, 2010
Happy Sunday after Christmas!
Hello dear ones!
Merry Christmas to you all!!
I am sorry I didnt post the past few days, but you all know...its just busy! I hope you all got wonderful surprises for Christmas this year and that the time spent with family was wonderful! I got a beautiful jewelry armoire, a 30 minute massage gift certificate, my favorite perfume along with the lotion & shower gel and an electric can opener. I have a fit every time I have to open a can because my handheld can opener is a piece of crap, so my hubby bought me an electric one....and it works like a champ!! My husband told me that for Valentines Day, he is buying me a pair of diamond stud earrings when we are in the Caribbean. We will be on a cruise from Feb 12-19th so we are going to our favorite little jeweler in St. Thomas to see what they have. Things are much better on the homefront & my husband has done a 180. He told me that he will never let the opportunity arise again to take me for granted. I thought that was a really sweet thing to say and I see that he really does love me and wants to make it work, so thats a good thing for sure!
Christmas Eve we had my husbands family over for dinner...that only lasted 3 hrs. We only see them once a yr and we are all local. How sad huh? I do see my husbands sister quite a bit as she is his only living sibling but his brothers wife (his brother died 4 yrs ago) & her children could care less about doing anything with us. You can tell that everything is done out of "obligation". It hurts my husbands feelings so bad as his family is dwindling down smaller & smaller as the years pass. Anyways, we spent Christmas eve with our girls just hanging out at home. We watched Elf & let the girls open a couple of their presents. Christmas Day is usually spent with my family but this year, with it falling on a Saturday, my uncle (hes a priest) couldnt come home til Sunday due to masses, so we are celebrating later today. I hope to be joining them but not sure if I will be able to go. I woke up with a bad belly ache & have had a bout of "the runs" all morning. I pray that it is short lived because I was really looking forward to spending time with my family today. We are having homemade spaghetti & meatballs. We decided to do something different this yr. I have to tell you...the thought of eating spaghetti today really turns the ole tummy. Might have to make some brown rice to take for myself if this passes.
So here I sit....thinking to myself, what a month this has been! So much stress & sadness and so many tears I could float down the street on a raft on all those tears. I pray every day that God will make things better for me emotionally and that this sadness will lift soon. I am taking the antidepresssant & I have noticed a little difference but I still have my moments where I willhave a wave of sadness go over me that brings me to tears. It is unexplainable. I feel like the people on the Cymbalta commmercial who are crying....thats me. My husband feels bad that I am so sad & keeps asking me what he can do, but there is really nothing he can do. Its depression and I need to work through it. Its just gonna take some time. I told him the best thing he can do is to just let me cry it out. Im sure that it is getting old because I cry every day, mostly at night when I have time to think about things. So say a prayer for me that this will lift. I hate this feeling and I want the old me back!!
On a weight loss note, looks like I am pretty close to the 200# mark as of this am. I really want to be in the 190s by the end of the week!! That would be so exciting if that happens and I feel so motivated to see that goal through! For the first time in a really long time, I feel a sense of hope with my weight loss efforts and I really believe that this year, I am going to finally hit my goal weight of 161. Even though the stress diet that I have been on isnt the ideal means, it has given me the push I needed to realize that I can do it!!!
Well, I will wrap this up for now. I think Ice rambled enough.Have a great day and keep in touch!!
Love to all!
Sherri
Merry Christmas to you all!!
I am sorry I didnt post the past few days, but you all know...its just busy! I hope you all got wonderful surprises for Christmas this year and that the time spent with family was wonderful! I got a beautiful jewelry armoire, a 30 minute massage gift certificate, my favorite perfume along with the lotion & shower gel and an electric can opener. I have a fit every time I have to open a can because my handheld can opener is a piece of crap, so my hubby bought me an electric one....and it works like a champ!! My husband told me that for Valentines Day, he is buying me a pair of diamond stud earrings when we are in the Caribbean. We will be on a cruise from Feb 12-19th so we are going to our favorite little jeweler in St. Thomas to see what they have. Things are much better on the homefront & my husband has done a 180. He told me that he will never let the opportunity arise again to take me for granted. I thought that was a really sweet thing to say and I see that he really does love me and wants to make it work, so thats a good thing for sure!
Christmas Eve we had my husbands family over for dinner...that only lasted 3 hrs. We only see them once a yr and we are all local. How sad huh? I do see my husbands sister quite a bit as she is his only living sibling but his brothers wife (his brother died 4 yrs ago) & her children could care less about doing anything with us. You can tell that everything is done out of "obligation". It hurts my husbands feelings so bad as his family is dwindling down smaller & smaller as the years pass. Anyways, we spent Christmas eve with our girls just hanging out at home. We watched Elf & let the girls open a couple of their presents. Christmas Day is usually spent with my family but this year, with it falling on a Saturday, my uncle (hes a priest) couldnt come home til Sunday due to masses, so we are celebrating later today. I hope to be joining them but not sure if I will be able to go. I woke up with a bad belly ache & have had a bout of "the runs" all morning. I pray that it is short lived because I was really looking forward to spending time with my family today. We are having homemade spaghetti & meatballs. We decided to do something different this yr. I have to tell you...the thought of eating spaghetti today really turns the ole tummy. Might have to make some brown rice to take for myself if this passes.
So here I sit....thinking to myself, what a month this has been! So much stress & sadness and so many tears I could float down the street on a raft on all those tears. I pray every day that God will make things better for me emotionally and that this sadness will lift soon. I am taking the antidepresssant & I have noticed a little difference but I still have my moments where I willhave a wave of sadness go over me that brings me to tears. It is unexplainable. I feel like the people on the Cymbalta commmercial who are crying....thats me. My husband feels bad that I am so sad & keeps asking me what he can do, but there is really nothing he can do. Its depression and I need to work through it. Its just gonna take some time. I told him the best thing he can do is to just let me cry it out. Im sure that it is getting old because I cry every day, mostly at night when I have time to think about things. So say a prayer for me that this will lift. I hate this feeling and I want the old me back!!
On a weight loss note, looks like I am pretty close to the 200# mark as of this am. I really want to be in the 190s by the end of the week!! That would be so exciting if that happens and I feel so motivated to see that goal through! For the first time in a really long time, I feel a sense of hope with my weight loss efforts and I really believe that this year, I am going to finally hit my goal weight of 161. Even though the stress diet that I have been on isnt the ideal means, it has given me the push I needed to realize that I can do it!!!
Well, I will wrap this up for now. I think Ice rambled enough.Have a great day and keep in touch!!
Love to all!
Sherri
Thursday, December 23, 2010
Thurs morning Post...2 days til Christmas!
Good morning friends!
Well, here we are, 2 days away from Christmas and I am still not in the mood to celebrate. Christmas is my favorite holiday and for some reason this year, I just dont have the christmas spirit. It makes me sad but I think that all the things that have happened in the last 2 months have contributed to my lack of enthusiasm in the holiday. I do feel like my antidepressant is finally kicking in but I still have my days where I just need a good cry to get it out of my system & feel better. Anyways, I am gonna pull it from my toes & try to find that Christmas spirit this year. I am hosting christmas eve dinner for the in laws this year (we all take turns) & I have to cook my ham today as well as do some overhaul cleaning. uggh! I am getting my hair colored & highlighted @ 11:15 today too and I think I am going to also weigh in befire I go to the beauty shop.
On a positive note, my scale says Im down a pound this week which is good since it hasnt been a full week. I have been weighing in on Saturdays now. I will let you know the official number later today. I know that ham is gonna make me retain water & feel all bloated...yuck! My family is celebrating on Sunday & we are having spaghetti this year as something different. I like spaghetti but its not on my top 10 list of fav foods so I know I will have control. I do love a good meatball though! Anyways, I am finding that I am telling myself that the food doesnt have control over me anymore & I believe it and it has made it easier to resist temptation. I rolled out my cutout cookies last night and was able to have just 1. It was very good too and I enjoyed it and I have no guilt or regret about eating it where before I would pop 3 or 4 in my mouth without thinking and then feel bad that I ate them. So I would say that is progress. I also took my waist measurements this am. Waist is now 39 (was 43) and abdomen is now 43 (was 47) so thats a total of 8 inches lost from my belly and I couldnt be happier! My clothes are fitting so much better and I have been wearing my fav Levis alot now. Before I lost this weight, I just couldnt wear them for anything more than an hr becuase the waistband dug into my belly and I had a big ole roll flowing over it. I had to wear it with a sweatshirt too so it would camoflage the roll but now I am able to wear it with a normal top.I feel that in itself is a victory.
I bought a beautiful cobolt blue sweater with blue sequins for Christmas. I am going to wear it with my black dress slacks that are now getting quite baggy on me but they still look nice and I have some really beautiful silver jewelry to wear with it. Weather depending, I may wear my pretty dress boots with a heel or if we have no snow, might just wear my black patent leather pumps. Will have to wait on that one. So gonna have a fresh new hairdo, got my nails done and feel great in my new christmas outfit. I feel like a million bucks in that sweater for some reason....I think its the color....I look good in bright pinks, blues & purples (although I dont usually buy purple because I feel like a grape in it! lol)
Ok, well I better get a move on it here. I should be cleaning but I dont wanna! Can somebody send a cleaning lady my way please???
Have a great day & keep in touch! Love hearing from you all!
Love
Sherri
Well, here we are, 2 days away from Christmas and I am still not in the mood to celebrate. Christmas is my favorite holiday and for some reason this year, I just dont have the christmas spirit. It makes me sad but I think that all the things that have happened in the last 2 months have contributed to my lack of enthusiasm in the holiday. I do feel like my antidepressant is finally kicking in but I still have my days where I just need a good cry to get it out of my system & feel better. Anyways, I am gonna pull it from my toes & try to find that Christmas spirit this year. I am hosting christmas eve dinner for the in laws this year (we all take turns) & I have to cook my ham today as well as do some overhaul cleaning. uggh! I am getting my hair colored & highlighted @ 11:15 today too and I think I am going to also weigh in befire I go to the beauty shop.
On a positive note, my scale says Im down a pound this week which is good since it hasnt been a full week. I have been weighing in on Saturdays now. I will let you know the official number later today. I know that ham is gonna make me retain water & feel all bloated...yuck! My family is celebrating on Sunday & we are having spaghetti this year as something different. I like spaghetti but its not on my top 10 list of fav foods so I know I will have control. I do love a good meatball though! Anyways, I am finding that I am telling myself that the food doesnt have control over me anymore & I believe it and it has made it easier to resist temptation. I rolled out my cutout cookies last night and was able to have just 1. It was very good too and I enjoyed it and I have no guilt or regret about eating it where before I would pop 3 or 4 in my mouth without thinking and then feel bad that I ate them. So I would say that is progress. I also took my waist measurements this am. Waist is now 39 (was 43) and abdomen is now 43 (was 47) so thats a total of 8 inches lost from my belly and I couldnt be happier! My clothes are fitting so much better and I have been wearing my fav Levis alot now. Before I lost this weight, I just couldnt wear them for anything more than an hr becuase the waistband dug into my belly and I had a big ole roll flowing over it. I had to wear it with a sweatshirt too so it would camoflage the roll but now I am able to wear it with a normal top.I feel that in itself is a victory.
I bought a beautiful cobolt blue sweater with blue sequins for Christmas. I am going to wear it with my black dress slacks that are now getting quite baggy on me but they still look nice and I have some really beautiful silver jewelry to wear with it. Weather depending, I may wear my pretty dress boots with a heel or if we have no snow, might just wear my black patent leather pumps. Will have to wait on that one. So gonna have a fresh new hairdo, got my nails done and feel great in my new christmas outfit. I feel like a million bucks in that sweater for some reason....I think its the color....I look good in bright pinks, blues & purples (although I dont usually buy purple because I feel like a grape in it! lol)
Ok, well I better get a move on it here. I should be cleaning but I dont wanna! Can somebody send a cleaning lady my way please???
Have a great day & keep in touch! Love hearing from you all!
Love
Sherri
Monday, December 20, 2010
Happy Monday again!
Hello to all my BFC Sisters!
Well, Here it is...Christmas week. I can hardly believe it! Where has the time gone...the year gone?? Why after all this time passing dont I look a day past 25?? (hahahaha! yeah, right! I wish!) As another year is coming to a close, and it makes me melancholy. So many things happened this year, some very good that made me so happy ,and it seems quite a few things happened that I will be glad to put int the past for sure. But one thing I am happy about, I will be ringing the new year in @ a weight I havent seen in 6 yrs!! 6 yrs!! Every new years I have felt so sad because I never hit my weight loss goal for the year. The goal has always been the same...to weigh what I weighed when I got married...161.
So once again, my goal will be to weigh 161 this next year. To get healthier, to exercise more, to be happy with myself. To be proud of every pound I lose and not beat myself up when I have a slip up. To look in the mirror & like what I see but to also love the person staring back at me. I havent been able to do that for a very long time. To forgive myself for the many many attempts I have had at dieting in the past that have failed where I have told myself that I am also a failure. This year, I am going to find ME again!! I feel like I have been lost & wandering aimlessly for so many years....I am going to be 45 yrs old in Sept. Half of my life has passed me by and I am still unhappy & overweight. NO MORE!!!! I am reclaiming my life in 2011!! I am going to do nice things for myself like get my nails done, get a pedicure or massage because I am worth it!! I hope that each of you will join me as we ring in this new year in a couple of weeks with a BIG goal for yourself. I truly believe that this IS FINALLY going to be my year!!!
I have decided to make monthly goals to make the big goal of 161 easier to attain. They say you cant eat an elephant in one bite, but you can eat it piece by piece. So my goal for Dec is to get into the 190's. I dont care if it is 199.5...that is the goal so another 2# by Dec 31st....totally do able! Then my goal for January is to get to 189.5. OMG...I cant tell you the last time I weighed 189.5!! I want to leave for my cruise on Feb 12th @ 185. It may seem lofty to reach for a 16.5# weight loss by Feb 12th, but I am gonna do my best to make it happen!! I want to feel good in my bathing suit. I dont want to wear my size 18W suit...I want to wear my 16...or better yet my size 14 swimsuit. So thats what I am reaching for and I believe that I will do it!!
All of the stress I have had in November & December definitely added to my loss of appetite & rapid loss of about 9# but it was a catalyst to give me the push I needed to get going. It has breathed belief in me again! My husband and I were laying in bed talking last night & I told him these same things I just wrote. I told him that I am going to once & for all lose this weight because it has been a demon I have been fighting all my life.
He has been very supportive and there has been such a change in how he treats me & how he treats the girls. I feel like peace has been restored to my life again....and it is a wonderful feeling to have that back.
Well, look at this post! Geez Louise....sorry its so long but I wanted to share my thoughts. I would love to hear your 2011 goals for yourself. Please be sure to post them in the comments & we will cheer each other on!!!
Have a great evening!!
Love to all & warm fuzzy ((HUGS))
Sherri
Well, Here it is...Christmas week. I can hardly believe it! Where has the time gone...the year gone?? Why after all this time passing dont I look a day past 25?? (hahahaha! yeah, right! I wish!) As another year is coming to a close, and it makes me melancholy. So many things happened this year, some very good that made me so happy ,and it seems quite a few things happened that I will be glad to put int the past for sure. But one thing I am happy about, I will be ringing the new year in @ a weight I havent seen in 6 yrs!! 6 yrs!! Every new years I have felt so sad because I never hit my weight loss goal for the year. The goal has always been the same...to weigh what I weighed when I got married...161.
So once again, my goal will be to weigh 161 this next year. To get healthier, to exercise more, to be happy with myself. To be proud of every pound I lose and not beat myself up when I have a slip up. To look in the mirror & like what I see but to also love the person staring back at me. I havent been able to do that for a very long time. To forgive myself for the many many attempts I have had at dieting in the past that have failed where I have told myself that I am also a failure. This year, I am going to find ME again!! I feel like I have been lost & wandering aimlessly for so many years....I am going to be 45 yrs old in Sept. Half of my life has passed me by and I am still unhappy & overweight. NO MORE!!!! I am reclaiming my life in 2011!! I am going to do nice things for myself like get my nails done, get a pedicure or massage because I am worth it!! I hope that each of you will join me as we ring in this new year in a couple of weeks with a BIG goal for yourself. I truly believe that this IS FINALLY going to be my year!!!
I have decided to make monthly goals to make the big goal of 161 easier to attain. They say you cant eat an elephant in one bite, but you can eat it piece by piece. So my goal for Dec is to get into the 190's. I dont care if it is 199.5...that is the goal so another 2# by Dec 31st....totally do able! Then my goal for January is to get to 189.5. OMG...I cant tell you the last time I weighed 189.5!! I want to leave for my cruise on Feb 12th @ 185. It may seem lofty to reach for a 16.5# weight loss by Feb 12th, but I am gonna do my best to make it happen!! I want to feel good in my bathing suit. I dont want to wear my size 18W suit...I want to wear my 16...or better yet my size 14 swimsuit. So thats what I am reaching for and I believe that I will do it!!
All of the stress I have had in November & December definitely added to my loss of appetite & rapid loss of about 9# but it was a catalyst to give me the push I needed to get going. It has breathed belief in me again! My husband and I were laying in bed talking last night & I told him these same things I just wrote. I told him that I am going to once & for all lose this weight because it has been a demon I have been fighting all my life.
He has been very supportive and there has been such a change in how he treats me & how he treats the girls. I feel like peace has been restored to my life again....and it is a wonderful feeling to have that back.
Well, look at this post! Geez Louise....sorry its so long but I wanted to share my thoughts. I would love to hear your 2011 goals for yourself. Please be sure to post them in the comments & we will cheer each other on!!!
Have a great evening!!
Love to all & warm fuzzy ((HUGS))
Sherri
Saturday, December 18, 2010
Onederland is getting close!!!
Hey girls!!
Omigosh!!! Omigosh!! Omigosh!!! I cant believe it!!! I weighed in this morning and lost 4.6#...total of 11.8# and I am 2# away from being in the 190's!!! Official weight was 201.2. I can hardly believe it!! I feel like I have been spinning in neutral for such a long long time and to see these numbers again on the scale is just so thrilling!!! I AM gonna be in ONEDERLAND for Christmas & not New Years like I had hoped.Makes me even more motivated to work harder. Oh...and my measurements are down too!! Waist is 39 1/2 now from 43 and belly is down to 44 from 47. Yippee!! My pants are getting bigger & I love that feeling!!!
All is good here....just trying to get some last minute things done. My daughter (12 yo) wanted to make cookies so I made 3 differnet doughs yesterday & will bake them when I get time. I made Reese cup cookies & didnt have the desire to have one!! Now THAT is an accomplishment for sure. I have to make cutouts and those.....well, those are really a downfall of mine. I am gonna have to make em & freeze immediately. I am having Christmas Eve for the in laws at our house this year so the cookies will be dessert.
My best friend called me today, she is still having a hard time with everything. Please continue to pray for her & her children. This is such a hard time for so many @ Christmas....My heart just breaks for them.
Thanks to everyone who posted comments. It is so good to feel back in the loop again.
Have a great day!
Love to all!!
Sherri
Omigosh!!! Omigosh!! Omigosh!!! I cant believe it!!! I weighed in this morning and lost 4.6#...total of 11.8# and I am 2# away from being in the 190's!!! Official weight was 201.2. I can hardly believe it!! I feel like I have been spinning in neutral for such a long long time and to see these numbers again on the scale is just so thrilling!!! I AM gonna be in ONEDERLAND for Christmas & not New Years like I had hoped.Makes me even more motivated to work harder. Oh...and my measurements are down too!! Waist is 39 1/2 now from 43 and belly is down to 44 from 47. Yippee!! My pants are getting bigger & I love that feeling!!!
All is good here....just trying to get some last minute things done. My daughter (12 yo) wanted to make cookies so I made 3 differnet doughs yesterday & will bake them when I get time. I made Reese cup cookies & didnt have the desire to have one!! Now THAT is an accomplishment for sure. I have to make cutouts and those.....well, those are really a downfall of mine. I am gonna have to make em & freeze immediately. I am having Christmas Eve for the in laws at our house this year so the cookies will be dessert.
My best friend called me today, she is still having a hard time with everything. Please continue to pray for her & her children. This is such a hard time for so many @ Christmas....My heart just breaks for them.
Thanks to everyone who posted comments. It is so good to feel back in the loop again.
Have a great day!
Love to all!!
Sherri
Friday, December 17, 2010
Its Friday!
Hello friends!!
Well, thank goodness its Friday!! I worked all week & I need a day off to recover but so much to do with Christmas a week away! I am feeling better emotionally although I do get weepy in the evening so just trying to get that under control. Taking Wellbutrin 2x day now & it does take the edge off. My youngest daughter told me the other day that the only thing she wanted for Christmas was for me to be in the christmas spirit. Really made me feel bad that this has affected my kids but this depression is beyond my control. I told her I will do my best and that I am taking medicine to help me feel better. My husband has been great through all of this and to be honest,I dont know if I could have got through the death of my friends husband without him.
I have noticed one thing though...the antidepressant has taken my appetite away quite a bit since I have been taking it. I am 3# away from being in the 190's and I am so fricken excited about that!! I know the stress diet that I have been on the past few weeks is not the ideal way to lose but it has given me yhe push I needed to feel hopeful & to work harder to get there. I felt like I was "spinning in neutral"...I would lose & gain the same 3# it seemed but now with the 190s in sight, I am excited to press on & finally do it this year!!! I have not been following BFC for some time now due to all the stress & inability to focus with everything that has happened in the past month. I did go back to Weight Watchers with my sister (who has lost 17# since Sept!) because I wanted to continue to support her & she has been a great inspiration to me as well as a great support person & friend. She definitely has a soggy shoulder from all my tears but she just encourages me that every day will get better & that I can do this. I am going to continue my blog & I hope that you all arent disappointed in me but right now, this is what I feel is best for me to do right now. Anyways, I feel that no matter what plan we are following, we all have on common goal...weight loss!! Even though we have never met, I feel like you are all such dear friends & I love the support of my online "sisters" and I will continue to cheer each one of you on as you get skinnier & skinnier!
Well, I better get going & get some things done. Have a great day & weekend. My daughter wants to make cookies so that is what we are going to do!
Love to all!
Sherri
Well, thank goodness its Friday!! I worked all week & I need a day off to recover but so much to do with Christmas a week away! I am feeling better emotionally although I do get weepy in the evening so just trying to get that under control. Taking Wellbutrin 2x day now & it does take the edge off. My youngest daughter told me the other day that the only thing she wanted for Christmas was for me to be in the christmas spirit. Really made me feel bad that this has affected my kids but this depression is beyond my control. I told her I will do my best and that I am taking medicine to help me feel better. My husband has been great through all of this and to be honest,I dont know if I could have got through the death of my friends husband without him.
I have noticed one thing though...the antidepressant has taken my appetite away quite a bit since I have been taking it. I am 3# away from being in the 190's and I am so fricken excited about that!! I know the stress diet that I have been on the past few weeks is not the ideal way to lose but it has given me yhe push I needed to feel hopeful & to work harder to get there. I felt like I was "spinning in neutral"...I would lose & gain the same 3# it seemed but now with the 190s in sight, I am excited to press on & finally do it this year!!! I have not been following BFC for some time now due to all the stress & inability to focus with everything that has happened in the past month. I did go back to Weight Watchers with my sister (who has lost 17# since Sept!) because I wanted to continue to support her & she has been a great inspiration to me as well as a great support person & friend. She definitely has a soggy shoulder from all my tears but she just encourages me that every day will get better & that I can do this. I am going to continue my blog & I hope that you all arent disappointed in me but right now, this is what I feel is best for me to do right now. Anyways, I feel that no matter what plan we are following, we all have on common goal...weight loss!! Even though we have never met, I feel like you are all such dear friends & I love the support of my online "sisters" and I will continue to cheer each one of you on as you get skinnier & skinnier!
Well, I better get going & get some things done. Have a great day & weekend. My daughter wants to make cookies so that is what we are going to do!
Love to all!
Sherri
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