Monday, January 10, 2011

Monday Evening Post...

Hey there Skinny Girls!!

I was thinking of what I wanted to write about tonight and thought I would share a real  life changing event for me that happened about 12 years ago but it was instrumental in my weight loss.
 I remember it vividly! In Dec of 1998, my husbands cousin Jack had open heart at the age of 53. He ended up dying on the table. It was so tragic! I had just had my daughter Rachel Nov 16th and it must have been around Dec 10th that Jack died. Anyways, I remember going to his funeral for the viewing. I remember I wore a beige sweater that covered my belly because it was still so jello-y from just having a baby 3 weeks prior and a pair of beige stir up pants with elastic waist. Even though Jacks passing was a tragedy, I was excited to wear this outfit because it was the first time I left the house not dressed in maternity clothing. Anyways, I had to drive about 1/2 hr to the funeral home. I got there and payed my respects. My husbands cousin Rosalie (sorry to our Rosalie ...you are nothing like this Rosalie!!) who is about 4'10" and about 98# soaking wet came up to me and said, and I quote.."You are such a pretty girl, if you would just lose some weight you would be so much prettier". I was speechless.!! I got in my car and sobbed the entire way home. I was so hurt!! Dont skinny people know that us chubby girls  are VERY AWARE of how we look and we are self concious about it? I mean, I just had a baby for heavens sake! I remember thinking to myself, "Im gonna show her...Im gonna get skinny"! I vowed that the next year, I would have a family portrait taken of us for Christmas and I would make sure Rosalie got the first one!! Well, it fueled my fire and I was a woman on a mission and I did exactly what I set out to do!!! It took me an entire year but I lost 52# in 1999. I went from 218# down to 166# and OMG I had palpable AND visible collarbones and I was sporting a size 10/12 (depending on who made it). By my standards, I was skinny for once in my life!! I will never forget it, Ole Rosalie sent us a christmas card that year and made a comment on how wonderful I looked & how thin I had gotten. A proud moment indeed where I said to myself...Mission accomplished! I maintained the weight loss for about a year, then steadily started gaining again. So where am I going with this??? I dont remember!! HAHA! No...Just kidding! I feel like I have been a ship lost at sea for so many years. I have been out in the ocean floating searching and searching for that port but never found it. I tried diet after diet after diet for years, only to get discouraged and disappointed when I failed at it. But this year, this time, I feel like I have found the lighthouse and my port is finally waiting for me to arrive!!!  Even though I havent had anyone say something as mean as what my husbands cousin said to me that day in Dec of  '99, I feel that same fire and excitement again that this is truly going ot be my year!! I feel HOPE again...I havent had HOPE in such a long time. I feel like I have a course mapped out, a plan...FINALLY!! Im not wandering aimlessly anymore! I have a purpose and a goal....and my ship is FINALLY coming in!! I feel it in my heart. I cant even begin to tell you how good it feels! I am going to have another family portrait taken in November and it will be our christmas card this year....and I am gonna look better than I have ever looked!!

I was talking to my sister yesterday(who is also my WW weight loss buddy) and I told her I feel different this time around. Before, I wouldnt think a thing about popping something in my mouth and justifying that it was ok. Now I am asking myself the question " what is more important to you...Eating this particular food or seeing the scale go down and getting into a smaller size?" I have been choosing the latter of the two when I ask myself that question. It is such a change of thinking for me!

Sorry that this was such a long post. I dont know what inspired me to write this but I felt I needed to share it with you. I have lived 2/3 of my life overweight and I dont want to live any more of my life this way!!

Well, I have rambled quite a bit here so I will say goodnite & sleep tight! Have a great day tomorrow!!
Thanks for listening.....
Love & belief!
Sherri

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Living Life~ Sunday Jan. 9, 2011

Hello all!

I have a really wonderful passage to share with you today. I bought this beautiful framed passage a few months ago. It hangs in an area of my house that makes me stop to read it each day. I hope that you will enjoy it as much as I do. It really sums up how I truly feel about my life.

                                                                      Living Life

Life is not a race~but indeed a journey. Be honest. Work hard. Be choosy. Say "thank you", "I love you" and "great job" to someone each day. Go to church, take time for prayer. The Lord giveth and the Lord taketh. Let your handshake mean more than pen & paper. Love your life and what you have been given, it is not accidental~ search for your purpose and do it as best you can. Dreaming does matter. It allows you to become that which you aspire to be. Laught often. Appreciate the little things in life and enjoy them. Some of the best things really are free. Do not worry, less wrinkles are more becoming. Forgive, it frees the soul. Take time for yourself~ plan for longevity. Recognize the special people you've been blessed to know.
                                                 Live for today~ Enjoy the Moment!

Thank you to all the special friends I have met through our blogs. You are all such great people with big hearts and incredible wisdom and kindness! I  feel blessed to have such wonderful supportive weight loss girlfriends! Thanks for being there for me!!

Love & Belief!
Sherri
p.s I tried on a pair of size 16M (not W) Levis jeans that have been hanging in my closet for, I dunno, FOREVER....well guess what??!! I can now zip them up!!!! I have been wearing an 18W for what seems like a lifetime and it is such a thrill to pull things out that have been sitting there for years and be able to wear them again!! They are snug and my sz 18M Levis (my favs) are still my "go to" pair for now (I wasnt able to wear those for about 6 yrs and now they fit perfect with a little room to spare), but I can tell you this my friends...it wont be long before I will be sporting those 16 Levis comfortably! Just sayin.....OMG~I CANT WAIT!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, January 8, 2011

Weigh in Day!! Sat Jan 8, 2010

Hello to all my Skinny Sisters!

Well, had my official weigh in today @ WW and I am down another 1.8#, that makes a total of 15.2 lost w/ WW since Dec 1 and a total weight loss of 20.5# when I was at my heaviest last March, 2010. I am about 6# away from hitting my 10% weight loss.....I dont think I have ever hit my 10% with WW....ever...so that is pretty exciting stuff too!  It feels so good to be wearing my jeans again that I havent worn in I dont know how many years,to see my clothes getting baggy, to not have as many ripples & bumps showing and to just enjoy feeling a little bit lighter. I put my winter coat on today and noticed that it is really starting to get big on me too. When I got on the scale this morning though, it said I was up 3# since yesterday!! I was like....seriously?! How can you possibly gain 3# overnight? I have been sooooo good, following everything to a tee and exercising too, and then it dawned on me. It seems that every time I exercise before I weigh in, I am always heavier the next day. I did 2 exercise tapes yesterday and I am wondering if my body is just hanging on to a little extra water weight from doing them. So I waited til 11am to weigh in and the scale came back down. So note to self...not gonna exercise on Fridays. I really need to update my stats too! I have really laxed on that.

I pulled out my bathing suits (all in black might I add....go figure!) and tried them on this morning. They look ok, I suppose.... but I am thinking another 10# and they will look much better. We have our cruise in 4 1/2 weeks and I dont know how realistic it is to lose that much in that short of a time frame but by golly, Im gonna give it my best shot! I will take anything I lose in that timeframe and be happy with it. Even though they are just numbers, and they certainly dont define me by any means, it is so fun to see them going down instead of up which is what was happening all of last year. I fell like something has "clicked" for me this time and as I have said in previous posts, I REALLY KNOW that this time I am going to do it!!! I have never been more motivated and I truly believe that come Sept. you aren't gonna believe what you will see! I wanna look younger, dress in cute stylish clothing that doesnt scream grandma or have a "W" after the number , and I wanna look HOT for once in my life!!! I am starting to envision myself looking this way and I have never been able to do that before.

So thats my update for you all. I hope you are all doing great! Please be sure to post how your week has gone. Have a wonderful weekend and please keep in touch & be sure to say hello if you stop by to visit!

Love & belief!
Sherri

Friday, January 7, 2011

Friday Jan 7, 2011

Good morning friends!

Well, the feet are feeling great today! Woke up to little to no pain and I am walking normally. The things we take for granted....like walking without being in pain. Makes you appreciate the body God has given! I have abused it for so many years by being overweight. I am ready to make a change this year and take care of this body that he has given me by fueling it properly and exercising regularly. I dont want to have problems down the road like diabetes, heart disease, etc. So many of those problems are truly preventable. I read somewhere that diabetes is really on the rise! I believe the statistic I read was something like 46% of the population are affected by it. That is just crazy!!!

So anyways, I bought a new kickboxing tape last week and hadnt tried it yet so last night, I popped it in the DVD player & was going to just preview it and then I decided to give the moves a try. It was a really good workout and I was sweting in my pjs by the end of it. It was starting to aggravate my foot by the end so I didnt complet the cooldown...but I am ready to try it again today. It has weighted gloves  that you wear to turn up the intensity and the tape is really fun to do.

Got on the scale this morning and it says that I am down 2.5# this week! Yippee!! I officially weigh in tomorrow at WW so we shall see what their scale says. By the time you add clothing in, it usually adds on a pound. But I feel great and so motivated to keep going!! I havent been this motivated in years!!!

WEll my friends, a short post from me today. Not much else going on. Hope you all have a great day and be sure to post your comments. I love hearing from you!

((Hugs))
Sherri

Thursday, January 6, 2011

Thurs Jan 6, 2011

Hello again!

Well, I finally got a day off from work today and am just trying to regroup. That nasty intestinal flu is running rampant everywhere and we had 6 people call in sick on Tues and they have been out all week. It is such a nasty nasty bug!! Been working alot and my achilles tendonitis has really been causing me grief so I saw the foot Dr. this morning and he injected a fat pad area outside the achilles (you cant inject it directly or it can rupture it..ouch!) and it usually takes about 24 hrs to get relief but it usually works. The pain is so bad at times it wakes me up at night and I cant get  back to sleep. I am doing everything I can to avoid surgery, but I know down the road, it is inevitable. I have a huge bone spur on the back of my heel that constantly irritates my achilles tendon and he would have to literally shave the bone spur off. NOT looking forward to that at all!!! I will be crawling or in a wheelchair before we get to that point.  Anyways, I am once again on foot rest until Monday, so no exercise for me. The hardest part of this is, I really want to exercise but the pain is so bad, I pay for it with excruciating pain for days after. I think I am going to have to cancel my gym membership. I am not able to utilize it the way I did last year and right now it is wasting my $ to keep paying the $59/ fee. You dont realize how important your feet are until you have issues with them. It feels crippling at times as I hobble around some days. Oh well, not to moan & groan on you all....I know there are others who have it worse off than I do. I am grateful that I can get out of bed every morning. It is a blessing indeed! I have a few days off from work so I think not having to stand on my feet all day will really help.

So I have been very very good this week, following my plan closely but that darned scale hasn't budged a smidge! Grr!! I did have a substantial loss over Dec. of about 13# ( I think! It might have been more. I am having a brain fart at the moment) and I really wanted to get into the 180s by my cruise in Feb but Im not sure it is gonna happen considering I cant exercise at all right now. I have  a stationary bike but believe it or not it hurts to ride that too becuase it pulls on the achilles. (sigh) I am just gonna keep on pluggin away and do my best to keep the scale going downward.

I have a couple of 1 hour massage gift certificates to a really nice Day Spa in town and I think I am going to treat myself to a nice massage this week! My husband buys me one for bdays & christmas every year and I still havent used them. I think I have two 1 hour massages, and one half hour massage. A half hour is just a tease....Im going for the full shabang!It is a really beautiful place! They arent cheap but it is such a treat to pamper yourself there!

So thats my day here. Just going to hang out at home for a bit today and do some light cleaning & make a nice dinner tonite. My hubby wants goulash so thats what will be served. Its very cold here, about 26 degrees and there is beautiful light "christmas snow" falling outside my window. I really enjoy it when the house is quiet like this too. It just gives me time to chill out & enjoy the serenity.

Have a great day gals!!

Love to all!!
Sherri

Monday, January 3, 2011

Its Monday!

Hello to all my Skinny Sisters!!

How was your weekend? We had alot of fun. My husband turned 50 on Sat & I threw a little party for him to celebrate. We had family & friends over and it was just a great time visiting and we started bowling on the Wii...omg...so fun!! And can I just tell you, I was kickin butt!! My husbands best friend Joe was so funny. He was like, "Sherri, Im gonna be your manager when you go out on your Wii bowling tour!" Made me laugh to hear that!

So I have been reading all of your posts and my goodness...so many great things are happening to my BFC sisters! Diana is wearing cute little size 16 jeans now, Kasey is 22# lighter than last year, Rosalie is wearing a size 10 and has lost over 70#!!! My goodness....how awesome it was to read all of your blogs!! Sooo much to be proud of my friends!! I am also happy that this is the first year I didnt boo hoo on New Years like I always do, having a pity party of one with myself over the fact that I was the same weight that I was (or heavier) than last year. But not this year!!! I am 18# lighter than I was last year and I am doggone proud of that too!!

I went searching in my photos that are dowloaded and I found a picture from Jan 2, 2009 and a picture from Jan 2, 2011. OMG wait til you see the difference! I almost fell over when I saw the comparison!!
I thought that this picture was taken last year, but I wrote 2009 so I guess that was what I looked like then. All I can say is, my goodness, what happened to me that I let myself get so big? I am making positive changes in my life and I have vowed to myself that I will NEVER allow myself to get this big ever again!! I am embarrassed to post these pictures but it is what it is and I cant continue to go on seeing my weight through rose colored glasses. I am glad that I took these photos and I cant wait to watch me become the incredible shrinking woman this year!

I got my nails done tonight, and my nail girl, Julie and I were talking. She is also a spinning instructor at the Y
too  and she keeps encouraging me to get into a spinning class. It makes me nervous because I dont think I could last the full hr doing that. While my nails were drying, Julie and I and another gal Bridget were chatting about our weight. Bridget quit smoking in Sept and gained 20# and she said she wants to lose it. I encouraged her to join me and I would be her weight loss Buddy. I dont think her head is in the game yet, and we all know, that is essential to your success!! You have to want it! You have to get that fire ignited inside of you!! You have to have a driving force!! I have all of the above and for once in my life I really really believe that this year I am finally going to have my weight loss dream come true!!

So here are my pictures...what do you all think? Can you see a difference too ??

                      
                                 Jan 2, 2009         
                                         
                                      Jan. 2, 2011                                                                              
                                          
                 So here we are, Jan 3rd of a brand new year!
2011....I am looking forward to what you have in store for me this year!!

Have a great evening & dont stop believing!!
Love
Sherri

Saturday, January 1, 2011

Happy New Year!!

Happy 2011 to all my Sisters in Weight loss!!

Well, here we are, embarking on yet another year! I can hardly believe where the time has gone. Today is my husbands 50th birthday. We are celebrating with a small family party. We will be on a cruise in 6 weeks and that is his big bday present. I cannot wait to go and get some warm weather & sunshine and some well needed R&R!!

My sister texted me this morning and said that this is the last year that we will need to resolve to lose the weight....and you know what? I actually believe it!!! I am proud of myself for the progress that I have made these last few months, even though some of my weight loss was not under the best circumstances. Regardless, it has given me the needed push to keep going and I feel so excited for what my future holds this year! I have been trying to lose weight for the last 10 years, no really, 10 years! I lost 58# in 1999 (it took me a full year to lose it!) and maintained it for almost a year and a half until May of 2000. I joined Mary Kay as a beauty consultant and found myself spending the time I would devote to my daily exercise had been pushed to the wayside and I focused alot on my business and less on me. Over the past 10 years, I had gained (embarrassed to say) 52.5#!!! I guess I got content somewhere along the lines and just didnt care anymore. I have resigned from my management position as of today with Mary Kay and I believe that it is what I am supposed to do. God knows the desires of my heart and I believe that in order to lose this weight I cannot have multiple focuses. I am ready to be back on the front burner again and I am ready to find Sherri again and I am going to enjoy every step of the journey!!

I remember when I lost all that weight , I could see and feel my collarbones. Mine are somewhat hidden now, I can feel them but cant really see them. I know when I get to my goal weight of 158 by Sept 25th that I will be looking great and have those collarbones showing. I have been envisioning myself skinny which I have never done in the past and it is fueling my desire to make this goal a reality!!

So my goal (I think I have stated it numerous times...sorry if I keep repeating myself!) is to lose another 40# by Sept 25th (my bday) and to not make excuses not to exercise. My January/Feb goal is to be in the 180s by our cruise mid Feb. I was contemplating cancelling my gym membership but I decided that I am  going to get back into going again. Its hard to do after work and when my feet are hurting but I need to do some activity and I have found that once I am dressed in my workout clothes & get in my car, there is no turning back and I always feel better for having gone. When I lost all my weight in 1999, I walked and did TaeBo tapes. It really toned me up and I was pretty darned thin, although I didnt think so at the time. But the photos tell another story!

So be sure to post your January Goal and your new years goal for yourself here and I will be cheering you on every step of the way!!! Heres to a GREAT YEAR!!!

Love & belief in us all!!!
Heres to making our dreams come true this year!!!
Sherri