Hello and Happy Sunday friends!
Well, prepare yourselves ladies for a rant because here it comes. You just wont believe this, but yesterday the scale (and a MEAN scale at that) said that I was UP a pound!!! Seriously???!! REALLY???!!! You have GOT to be kidding!!! I was so mad, frustrated, irritated, pissed off (sorry for that word but you know what I mean) totally ready to scream!!! How can you be sick all week, eat well and GAIN weight??! It isn't fair! I was DOWN the last time I got on the scale...not up!! My WW leader Pam said that when we are sick that sometimes the body will gain weight and not to worry, that it will come off by next weigh in. I am sure this does happen, but cmon, why me for Pete's sake?! I just don't know what I have to do to get the weight loss ball rolling again. I prayed last night and this morning in church for God to guide me on what I need to do. I realize I didn't exercise last week due to my cold and perhaps that is a factor. I don't know. I just cant take this idling much longer. Its gotten REALLY REALLY OLD!!! I haven't lost anything significant since October....OCTOBER!! That is ridiculous! I'm sorry to rant here, but this is how I am feeling inside. Just ready to scream!! I decided to take a no weigh in pass at the scale at WW yesterday. I just couldn't face seeing a gain on their scale too.
So girls, I'm feeling a bit at the wits end here today. I have faith in WW and their plan. It has helped me shed over 40# this past year, and I love & believe in the program, but why am I so stalled? I have to wonder if deep down inside, perhaps a part of me is becoming complacent or perhaps content with being in a size 14 and weighing 179?? I haven't been a size 14 in so many years, I almost have to wonder. I'm out of the WOMEN'S sizes now and can shop in the misses sizes. I am wearing a Large or sometimes Medium top these days. Maybe, just maybe, I am getting a little too comfortable? So its time to get UNCOMFORTABLE! I need to remind myself. I am not done with this journey! I am going to lose this last 30# if it kills me to do it.
OK, I'm done now. Thanks for letting me vent my frustrations. This just isn't what I had planned on how my new year was going to start out. I'm not giving up! Just going to work harder.
Hope you all have a super Sunday! Shrimp Scampi over shiritaki noodles for me for dinner tonight! Cant wait!!!! YUM!