Friday, December 30, 2011

A new year is right around the corner......

Good evening friends!!

I can hardly believe that it is December 30th! A New year awaits us in just 48 hours and as always, I approach every new year with great excitement for what will lie ahead in 2012! For the first time in a VERY LONG TIME, this new years eve will be one of celebration !. Every year on Dec 31st, it seems that I would find myself depressed and usually weighing about 10# more than I did 364 days prior. There were usually some tears shed and a vow to make the new year one where I would be thinner. For years & years I have literally OBSESSED about my weight.  Well, this year, I feel I made some headway in the weight loss dept and even though I really haven't done anything spectacular weight loss wise since Halloween, I am down 40+# in 2011, I am in the mid 170s and I am wearing a size 14 MISSES comfortably. It is such an accomplishment for me as I cant remember the last time I sported a size 14. I didn't have one thing in my closet in a size 14. Everything was size 16, 16W, and 18 & 18W. I have since cleaned my closet and every last 16 & 18 have been donated or taken to consignment for sale. Its a GREAT feeling to purge my closet of those "FAT CLOTHES!!!" I NEVER EVER want to wear a sie 16 or 18 ever again and I vow to you all here & now, I never will again! Being a size 18 was such an unhappy place for me. I can remember getting dressed for my daughters first communion a few years ago and trying on umpteen outfits only to find that none of them looked good on me. It made me want to cry!!Although I am not at the weight or size I had hoped to be at the end of 2011, I am still going to celebrate where I am now and how far I have come this year. I have tackled depression and am emotionally so much better, and happier than I have been in years. Thank you wellbutrin! :) I am learning to be patient with myself and to forgive myself if I have a bad day or week instead of just throwing my efforts to the wind & giving up, as I have done MANY MANY times in the past. I have made the commitment to myself that I will get tot he finish line this time, and no matter what, I will never quit!! I am worth every effort and every penny spent to better myself & my health.

I went back to my health club to rejoin the other day. Because I have a slow thyroid & had a history of a hysterectomy , I had to have medical clearance from my Dr. to go back, but all the paperwork is in, the clearance is completed and I am ready to get back to exercising again and getting this last 27+# off! NO MORE DILLY DALLYING!!!!! So I have set a goal for myself and I am going to make a goal poster for myself and hang it in my office or perhaps on my fridge to remind me of where I am going . I was a sales director for Mary Kay Cosmetics for many years and I always told my consultants that without a goal, you are a ship out at sea floating with no port in sight.You have to have a plan and KNOW where you are going! I refuse to drift aimlessly any more!

So I am not going to rattle off a new years resolution to lose weight to you all. Instead, I am going to share with you the itinerary of my weight loss plan and the course of action I plan to take to get there. I will also share with you my "ships blog" (lol) along the way documenting my successes, struggles, and victories in my weight loss journey. I am going to make my Goal Poster this weekend and I will post a picture to share with you either tomorrow of Sunday. Its a new year, a time to start fresh! I am excited to embark on this journey and I invite each of you to accompany me and make your own "itinerary" of where you would like to go this year. We are all in this together and it is such a great blessing to have all of your encouragement & support!!!

So as we say goodbye to 2011 and welcome in 2012, lets all set our compasses for SUCCESS this year!! The only place that success comes before work is in the dictionary!!! Lets all get to work and make our dreams finally come true!!

Here's to the BEST year ever!!!!!! Happy 2012!!!!

Big Hugs to you all!!!

Monday, December 26, 2011

My coconut bread recipe

Hello friends!
Its late, but I just baked a loaf of coconut bread for the week & it turned out fantastic so I had to share what I did. This loaf was better than the last one.  It is very dense, filling and is low points on WW....only 3 pts per slice! I top mine with 1 T. of the Natures Hollow jam & a few fresh berries. I feel like I am eating a slice of cheesecake!

Sherri's Lemon Coconut Bread Recipe
Mix the following ingredients in a stand up mixer with the beater blade:

1 stick Land O Lakes Light Butter (cut into small pieces. I did not have mine at room temp)
3 eggs
3/4 c egg beaters
1 T lemon extract
1 tsp vanilla extract
1 tsp almond extract
3 T. lemon juice
3/4 c. unsweetened vanilla or original almond breeze
2 oz light cream cheese (Naufchatel)
1 T vinegar (I didn't have apple cider vinegar)
1/2 cup Ideal brand sugar substitute (new product. Its Xylitol! :)
Mix all above ingredients until blended well.

Then add
3/4 c. coconut flour (sifted)
2 tsp baking powder
Mix until well blended

Spray loaf pan with Pam & Fold batter into loaf pan. Bake at 350 for 50-55 mins checking every 20 mins. Allow to sit in loaf pan about 20 mins then invert on cooling rack. Slice when cool. My loaf yielded 10 slices. I know some of you girls can get 12 slices out of your loaf. I haven't been able to do that.

I gotta tell ya girls, this came out AMAZING!!!! Nothing short of a little taste of heaven! I think the difference was the light STICK butter and the Ideal sugar substitute. I was hesitant to try it (Ideal) but when I tasted it, it was very good & no bad aftertaste. If you see it on your grocers shelves, don't hesitate to buy it. I think it is great & not too expensive either...around $4.50 for a large pouch. I'm not crazy about baking with Truvia. Its OK, but I notice an aftertaste with it.

I had the end slice with a little natures Hollow Apricot jam & it was so yummy! I just wanted to share my little tweak of this recipe with you girls. The original recipe was taken from Dawn & Rosalie's Blogs. Kudos to you ladies for sharing it. I'm hooked!!!!

Have a great night!

Sunday, December 25, 2011

Merry Christmas!

Good afternoon friends!

Well, its hard to believe it, but here it is....CHRISTMAS! Merry Christmas to each and every one of you and a big special Happy birthday to Jesus!! While I was getting ready for church this morning I found myself singing happy birthday to him. It seems December is just filled with so much commercialism of something that is so beautiful & sacred. How has this happened? Anyways, I always try to make sure that I take time out to wish him a happy birthday...he is the guest of honor you know!

As I sit back and reflect here a while before I get ready to go to my sisters house for Christmas with my family, I am reminded of all the things that I am so grateful for; A husband who loves me for who I am regardless of how much I weigh or the times that I have taken him for granted, 2 beautiful daughters who are healthy, beautiful & smart, Both of my parents and 2 of the best sisters a girl could ever ask for, a lovely home in a nice neighborhood, a good job with good people that I love to be around, good health, and some of the best blogging girlfriends in the world! Gosh, when I think about it, I have blessings chasing me down & overtaking me! :) Last year on this day, I was down with a bad case of the flu. I missed Christmas with my family and I was in a heavy state of depression. It was a very sad ending to 2010. As I think back on 2011, while it still had its trials & tribulations, for the most part, it was a pretty good year. Mentally, I am so much better & stronger and I feel like perhaps in the coming months I will be able to get off of my antidepressant. Weight wise, I am 42# lighter and I am wearing 3 sizes smaller clothing than I did at this time last year. Now THAT has been a real accomplishment! I am happier, and just in general so thankful for every day. Dont know why, but I am feeling quite melancholy today. Last night, I had my sister in law over for dinner. She is my husbands last living sibling and outside of friends, she has only us. We had a nice dinner...ham, roasted red potatoes, salad, rolls, jello salad.....all pretty delicious. I brought out a tray of some cookies that I made (only did 1 batch of 4 different varieties. I used to do about 12 different kinds. No wonder I was so big! hahaha!) as I was unwrapping the saran wrap from the tray, my youngest daughter made the comment that last year we didnt have any cookies because I was so depressed. It kind of took me aback to hear that. You just dont realize how much depression affects the people around you. So I am thankful to God for lifting my depression this past year and while I dont think I am just yet at 100%, I am getting very close to it. With a new year just around the corner, I am excited to usher 2012 in and I am so excited to see what I will look like next year at this time! I got a new camera from the hubs for Christmas so I am attaching my picture from last year along with my updated photo taken this morning with my new Nikon camera. Maybe now I can post more pictures!!! :)

 (Sorry, I was sick on christmas. The only full shot photo I could find)

(42# lighter! yay!)

So in closing, I want to wish you all a day filled with happiness & peace and surrounded by those that you love & cherish. Take your right arm & place it on your left shoulder & your left arm & place it on your right shoulder & SQUEEZE....and know that you have just received a BIG HUG from me!!!!

Merry Christmas!!!!

Saturday, December 17, 2011

Hola Chicas!

Hola Chica Choos! (one of my friends used to call me chica choo & I loved that name!

So last night was the big party for work and I am happy ot report that I did pretty well. There were alot of great food choices and I feel like I did well in making good selections. There was a wonderful salad, (w/ ranch dressing!! yay!) Steamed veggies (cauliflower, broccoli, carrots, zucchini) salmon, roast beef, a chicken breast with a raspberry sauce on it that was delicious, fresh fruit, rolls & butter & some of the most delicious looking desserts ever!!! I had a little something before going because I had eaten at 11:30 am & was pretty much starving when I got home from work. At the party, I had a yummy tossed salad, 1/2 of the raspberry chicken breast (hubby ate the other half) one small slice of roast beef, and about 2 bites of the salmon (that was actually really really good!) I had a few pcs of fresh fruit, some of the steamed veggies (about 1/2 cup) I skipped the roll & butter but I did get a slice of Italian creme cake. I had intentions of eating only 1/2 of it but OMG, it was spectacular and its something I rarely ever get so I ate every last bite! :) It was worth it! I was waiting all week to go to this dinner & I feel like I did really well passing up all the other temptations & catered lunches at work so I don't feel bad about it at all! I told myself at the beginning of the week that if I didn't want to weigh in this week, I didn't have to. I gave myself permission to enjoy myself,however, I found myself not wanting to partake in all of that food. It just wasn't worth it to me. Instead, I weighed in today as normal and I actually lost .6#. I was thrilled and I will take it! Getting through this week was challenging at times, but I prevailed & I wish I could put into word how great I feel about myself. I AM stronger than I ever thought I was and I have proven to myself this year that will determination & "Want"power, anything is possible! I hope I don't come off as bragging....not intended to come off that way. It is just such a victory for me and I wanted to share it with you all because I know you know where I am coming from. I seem to be stuck in the 170s again! Just looked back at my weight tracker with WW & I am teetering between 176-178. (sigh) Its frustrating but at least Im not gaining.

So another party tonite but I'm not worried about it in the least. I know I can keep it under control. So that's my thoughts of the day. I hope you are all doing well and are having a great weekend!

((HUGS)) to all of my Chicas!

Thursday, December 15, 2011

So I gotta tell ya.....

Hey there girls!

Well, gotta tell you this...that lemon coconut bread is that dang BOMB!!!! Holy cow!!! I feel like I am indulging into something so decadent and it has barely any sugar and only counts as 3 points on WW to boot! I had a bowl of hearty chili & 4 crackers in it ( I gotta have a few crackers in my chili!) and a slice of coconut bread with 1 T of Natures Hollow Raspberry jam & about 9 berries (blackberries & raspberries mixed) and can I just tell you, it was fabulous!!! I think I am gonna make my next batch of coconut bread with the 3/4 c almond breeze again. I really like it with the cheesecake texture. I feel like its dessert!

So I also gotta tell you, even though this week has been loaded and I mean LOADED with food at work I have been super good in following my plan and I can honestly say that the worst I have been was to eat 2 small pieces of white cake on Tues that were cut into approx 2 inch squares. They were really good & worth it or I wouldn't have had a 2nd piece. We had 2 lunches catered by the surgeons, bagels this morning from another one of our surgeons as well as one of the girls made cinnamon rolls too and today was also the hospitals BIG employee Christmas dinner and I am proud to say I didn't eat any of it! I am finding that I do have will power and that the pull of the food doesn't have the hold on me that it once did. Tomorrow (Fri) is our staff Christmas dinner at a very nice hotel. I am looking forward to that and I am planning to enjoy the nice meal. It was my plan all week to reserve my indulgence for Friday and I cant believe it but I have stayed true to my plan. I hate to toot my own horn, but I am really proud of myself. This is a victory for me indeed!

I did another day of BFC meals and I feel really good. I don't feel impulsive and although I was hungry when I got home from work at 6pm, I made a really yummy pizza on a low carb flat bread & loaded it up with lite mozzarella, turkey pepperoni, turkey sausage & mushrooms & it was worth the wait! So good and so filling! My hubby did get a 2# box of Daffins choc covered nuts & I did have a couple of them for dessert (about 4 small ones, looked like almonds)To me it was worth it. And I had a half of an almond milk smoothie that tasted like a frosty. I could only eat 1/2 of it but it is low sugar & low carb (a WW smoothie mix) but i enjoyed it.

So that was my day. I am pretty tired. This week at work has been super busy! I think that everyone is trying to get their surgery done before Christmas.

I know you are all probably falling over seeing another post from me, 2 days in a row now. Pick yourselves up girls! Its for real! hahahaha!

Have a great night!
Ho Ho Ho!

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Time to report in....

Hello Dear friends!

Well, today was a day off for me but it sure didn't feel like it. I feel like I haven't stopped since I got up & I am feeling the effects now...I'm pooped! I had so much that I wanted to accomplish & that fell kind of flat. My youngest daughter usually rides the bus home but it was early dismissal at 1:30pm so I had to pick her up because the busses don't run for the catholic schools on early dismissal days. What a pain in the butt that can be, especially when I have to work. So I felt like my day got cut short by having to pick her up. I wanted to pick up my prescriptions (didn't get there), wanted to go grocery shopping (got that done..yay!) and am in DESPERATE need of my hairspray which I can buy at wholesale price at a local cosmetology school (its $22/can but worth EVERY penny!!! Love it!! Kenra 25 volume spray in case you are wondering) and I didn't get there cuz its across town, and I need to return some things to Kohl's & Sam's club which I didn't get done. I could go up to Sam's tonight but to be honest, I really don't want to. I just don't feel like dealing with the crowds. I did get to run the vacuum & clean up the kitchen a bit and I made an excellent pot of chili for dinner. Kind of winged it & it came out yummy!!! Very thick  & hearty!

So I gotta tell you, I have been feeling a bit inspired by you, my peeps! Seeing Rosalie & Amber getting to meet Jorge & all of the success stories just make me want to work a little bit harder to stay on track. Also, seeing that picture of Kay looking so skinny a year later....I want that to be ME next year too!  So today, I thought to myself, I am gonna track my food really close to BFC guidelines & I feel like I did pretty well. Now don't get me wrong now, I am still on WW & plan to stay on WW however I thought I would just monitor the carbs & sugar intake because lately I feel like it has gotten a bit outta control. I get home from work & I literally want to chew off my arm because I am so hungry & then I get something sweet & I am off the track & riding the train  into Candy land! (lol, not really, I just thought that sounded cute! But I have been indulging in too many sweet things & I need to reel it in!) So I carefully watched my S/C all day & although I know its not the 15/6 Jorge recommends, I only went over by 8 in the sugar dept & 1 additional carb serving so my S/C total for today was 23/7. Not too bad for me. I felt really good & felt like I could suck my tummy in. I didn't feel bloated at all & feel like I had a really good day. So here's what I ate:
1/2 c egg beaters 0/0) w/chives & 1 slice (1/2oz) 2% milk reduced fat cheese (0/0)
2 slices Trader Joe's sprouted wheat bread toasted (0/14)
1 T light butter
1 T Natures Hollow Raspberry preserves (OMG! Sooo good!) 0/8
1 C Chocolate Almond Breeze, unsweetened (0/3)
1/2 c raspberries (2/8)
Total  S/C 2/31gms carbs  or 2/2

Mini pizza
Arnold thin (2/22)
1 T pizza sce (1/1)
1 1/2 oz light mozzarella (0/0)
1/3 c turkey sausage crumbles (0/0)
8 slices turkey pepperoni (0/0)
This was really yummy! Def will have it again!

1 c chili (7/1)
1/2 c strawberries in 1 container nonfat plain greek yogurt w/ 1 1/2 pkts Truvia (soo yummy too!)

Snack 1 slice of coconut bread with some natures hollow on top (1 T)

 I cant remember the S/C of the bread but I know its low. I have everything written out on my tracker & the final count was 23/7 per my calculations. I went over my pts by 2 but I ate very little fruit which is free so I think I did really well calorically speaking. On a side note, my coconut bread came out kind of on the heavy & moist side. I made Rosie's lemon coconut bread. It is edible & I have been trying to put my finger on what it tastes like & it dawned on me this reminds me of cheesecake! Heavy & dense & moist. I am thinking its not supposed to be this way but I will eat it up & try again. Perhaps I had too much liquid? I added an extra 1/2 c almond breeze instead of 1/4 cup. I'm thinking that's what did it.

So that's my day in a nutshell. I know this sounds pathetic, but I am so tired right now, I feel like I could fall asleep here at my computer! Cant wait til 10pm for bed!

Hope you are all doing great!
Love to all

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Mornin Peeps!

Good morning Skinny Peeps!

Its a crisp December morning here in Erie, PA. The sun is shining but it is chilly, only in the upper 30s and they are calling for snow tomorrow, 1-3 inches. I am ready for it though. Snow always gets me in the Christmas spirit!! :)

Yesterday was a very sad day. It was the anniversary of my best friends husbands death. He was only 49 and took his own life last year. She has had a year filled with sorrow, health problems galore, financial woes & bankruptcy, a mentally ill child and feelings of being responsible for his death. what a heavy burden to carry! I pray every day for her that God will lift this heavy burden from her. She doesn't deserve the things that have happened to her. I pray that 2012 will be a "corner turning" year for her. She has started to smile again & that is a beautiful thing to see!  I took her out to my favorite day spa & we got pedicures & then we went to grab some lunch...grilled chicken salads that were so yummy!!!! She has been my best friend for over 24 years and she is more like a sister to me than a friend. She has a chronic life threatening illness that will someday take her life, which I fear may be sooner than later. Every hospitalization she seems to get a little bit worse, but yesterday, she was so good! she has bouts of congestive heart failure related to this disease so it is difficult for her to do anything that requires alot of walking or activity. She is younger than I am, only 44. She also has kidney problems related to this disease & has been on the verge of dialysis so many times.When I visit her, she usually spends most of the time in tears, sobbing. I cant put into words how it hurts to see her in such pain. I took the day off from work so that I could spend some time with her. I didn't want her to spend the day in bed crying and I told her that she needed to be ready to leave by 11am and that we were not going to spend the day watching her wedding video & looking at her wedding album, which was what she wanted to do. I told her that we are getting out of the house & we are going to do something. It was great to just sit & relax & chat. She is one of those friends that no matter how much time has passed, when you get together with them, after a short time, you are both back on the same page and its like no time has passed since you last saw them. She and I both have busy lives & we are the type of friends who "don't keep score". We never say "well you haven't called me in months" . She is a true friend in every aspect and I feel so blessed that God allowed our paths to cross that first day of nursing school in 1987. She is a "keeper"! All in all, we had a very nice day, considering the underlying circumstances of the day & I am going to buy her a gift card to the day spa as a Christmas gift & take her back there again, maybe for massages and a pedicure next time. Sorry to have such heavy content in this paragraph but I know many of you like to hear what is going on in each others lives, & that is what is happening in mine. I'm so happy we got through the day without incident. I was prepared for the worst.

AS far as the weight front goes, well, my scale battery went kaput yesterday. Got on yesterday morning & it gave me 4 different weights and all of them were NOT good numbers!!! So I bought a new battery yesterday & got on this morning & it looks like I'm down about 1#. I will take it in December and 2 weeks before Christmas! I have decided that I am just not gonna stress over the scale this month. I am just gonna do my best to stay on plan, eat right & try to stay the same or lose a little (hopefully) for the rest of this month. I didn't think that it would be this challenging but I have to admit, it has been. My sister and I have decided that it is time to reign things in & buckle down but we decided that it will be best to do that once we get through Christmas. I'm just gonna try to keep myself "in check" in the meantime.

I hope you are all doing great! I have to get myself moving. Every year we take an angel card from the tree from church & sponsor a needy child with a Christmas gift. We have a 10 yo girl and they wrote that she needs a pr of shoes. How sad. I am going to get her a gift card (I think) for the shoes because that is something you have to try on, in my opinion and I usually always get them a toy of some sort. So I am off to get showered & to go shopping! Yay!

I hope you are all well & I'm sorry I was off the radar for a couple of days. Have a wonderful Thursday!!!!

Hugs to all

Friday, December 2, 2011

A quick post!

 Hello friends!

I only have about 10 minutes to write a quick post so here goes! I weighed in today (opted not to weigh tomorrow after the party) and am down 2.6#. Yay!!! Only 1.2# to lose to get back to where I was before my little gain. Why is it so easy to gain back & so hard to lose again?! Not fair!

So I am getting ready to go to my work Christmas party. There are 2 of them. The one tonight is at our Medical Directors house. The best part is, I can walk to her house cuz we are neighbors! Yay! I made mini cupcakes to take & they are so cute! And yes, they are the full fat & full sugar thing. I know, I know! I'm looking forward to seeing my co workers....its always lots of fun being with them. Gosh, I am so lucky to work with such fantastic people!

So after I weighed in, I went to my favorite consignment store, the Sassy Peacock & took some jeans & tops & shoes that no longer fit me. Out of 8 pr of shoes they took 6 to sell and out of 19 articles of clothing they took 15 so I am happy. I had everything clean, pressed & on hangers and I think that presentation is everything! They are a very nice ladies consignment store & i LOVE shopping there! I bought a pr of jeans about a month ago for $13.99!! A pr of Size 14 Levis. And I just bought a really cute brown top with beading around the neckline for 10.99. Really cute stuff! So I am hoping they all go to a good home & to make a few bucks to boot. :)

I bought a new pr of black jeans to wear to the Christmas party tonight & I am wearing a pretty Christmas sweater & a cute new pr of boots that I got at Kohl's. Tomorrow, I will sit in on my WW meeting & then get some stuff done around the house. I am all decorated for Christmas & so glad to have that monkey off my back!

On a side note, just wanted to send a shout out to Amber & Rosalie on meeting Jorge. What an awesome thing to happen & I loved seeing your pictures & reading what happened. Exciting stuff!!!

Well, I better scoot! Gotta pick up my dtr from school in a bit. Have a great Friday!!!

Wednesday, November 30, 2011

32 more days til a NEW YEAR!!!!!

Good morning girls!
Before I get into my post, I want you to know that I have attempted to post comments on your blogs for the past few days but when I go to enter the comment, it says I don't have authorization or something like that to comment...WHAT???!! I have no idea what the heck I have done wrong & when I go to log in to my Google acct, it says I'm already logged in. Not sure what is happening, but if you have any insight or can help me figure out how to post comments, that would be greatly appreciated! I want Pattie & Amber to know that  I got the boot when trying to comment on your blogs but I did read every ones posts since yesterday & when I figure this out I will post. I'm sorry, not a techie here.

So can you believe it??!! This year is almost done! I have to say, 2011 hasn't been too bad of a year for me. 2010, that was a different story!( Probably one of the worst years I have ever had) But I am grateful that in Dec 2010 I got the spark to begin my weight loss journey and although my road has had many detours & bumps along the way, I am so thrilled that when I ring in 2012, I will be 40+ # lighter! I am proud of myself for what I have accomplished and although I am not where I had hoped to be at this time, I am not going to beat myself up. I am going to stand tall & proud of myself as I have "hung in there" and not given up as I have done many many other times. I am grateful for my sister, my WW leader Pam & all of you for always offering great support, concern, wisdom and your "online" friendship. I will end this year feeling a sense of accomplishment  with a very thankful heart!

I am excited to think about the fact that in 2012, I will be at my goal weight! It IS going to happen, there is no doubt in my mind!! I have found that it not only takes hard work & will power to lose weight, but it is a true DESIRE within your heart to make it happen. It is a decision that is made "between the ears" (in your brain) & when you make that commitment to yourself, there is no stopping you!

So as we embark on our final month in the year 2011, lets continue to keep our focus on what we "really" want & stay true to ourselves. I had a moderate gain last week so unfortunately, I am going to have to work hard to get that off again. No more slip ups like that again. Big damage can be done in a small amt of least for me it can. Its a slippery slope unless you catch yourself. I am thankful that I got back on track before I REALLY did some damage!

I wish you all a wonderful day! I am off work today & have a few errands to run & I want to go & look for a new pr of black jeans to wear to my Christmas party on Friday night. The ones that I have just aren't ready to be worn yet, they are just a bit too snug for my liking.

Happy Hump day!!!
Love & Hugs!

Saturday, November 26, 2011

It was UGLY!!! My weekly weigh in.

Good evening fellow peeps!

Well, today was the day to face the music at the scale and it was ugly to say the least but thank goodness it is over & behind me now. I am up 3.6#, actually wasn't as bad as I had predicted because I was truly expecting about 5# gain. It seems that everyone at my meeting had a gain today so I don't feel so bad. My dad stayed the same & my sister gained 4.8# There was a lady sitting in front of us who gained 12.2# in the last 3 weeks. I think to myself, if I gained back 12+ # I would be so angry at myself but god bless her, she was a trooper & took her lumps too like the rest of us. Its good to know that we are not alone in this journey & having all this support of you all and my WW group I believe has been part of the key to my success. I do think you have to have determination & perseverance too when losing weight because along with the good will come the not so good weeks too & we have to learn to deal with that.

So its a new day, a new week and almost a new month! I love a fresh start & that feeling of wiping the slate clean. So tomorrow, I am going to plan my meals for the week & I bought an awesome new crock pot cookbook that I am going to put to use. I think if I have supper ready when I get home, I wont be so impulsive & start picking. I try to eat a snack on the way home so I'm not ravenous but lately, that hasn't helped much. The recipes in this cookbook look good & its called "Fix it & forget it". My kind of cookin! :)

OK girls, so I want to hear your opinion on this. Today, our regular WW leader Pam was out sick with the flu so we had a different leader, who just so happens to be named Sherry. :) She has lost over 200# with WW & has kept it off for 10 yrs. Pretty impressive & shes a very good WW leader. Today she was asking us what kind of things stress us out over the holidays & asked us to chime in. Well, you all know what I said..."Parties"! So she asked me how I planned to deal with my upcoming holiday parties & I told her that they all fall on Friday nights (day before weigh in) and that I have given up attending many parties in the past because I just want to stay on the straight & narrow but these Christmas parties, I don't want to seem anti social by not attending.To be completely honest. I could care less if I go to any of them or not but as I said, I don't want to be the party pooper so I am going. Anyways, I told her that my plan for this upcoming week is to weigh in on Friday morning & sit in on Saturdays meeting & not weigh in that day. I feel that I can at least go to the party & enjoy myself a bit & not worry what the scale says in the morning. I don't plan to allow myself to throw it all to the wind, but I do want to enjoy a few appetizers & perhaps a libation. She pulled me aside afterward & said that she would suggest NOT weighing in on Friday but to weigh in on Saturday as usual. She said that I will feel better by doing that, but you know what? I really don't think that will make me feel any better! I understand why she said what she did, that I can stay in control at the party, but I feel like I will have less stress on me doing it this way. Do you girls think that I am wrong to do that? Coming off of a week where I gained, I just don't want to chance having another gain. I think it would throw me over the edge. Your feedback girls....what do you think?

Well, that was my day. I did walk with my sister at the track for 3 miles & that felt good. I wish the weather would stay nice so we could continue to walk but I know the inevitable is coming & this week its supposed to get cold again. It was 60 & sunny today. I love a crisp & sunny fall day!

On a fun side note, just have to share this. Its definitely a girl thing. The other day, I was at work and they rolled a pt into the recovery room who had just had general anesthesia. I took him as my pt & as I was starting to hook up all the monitors again, I went to hook up his EKG leads (there are 3 of them, one on the right & left shoulders & the other at the side by the left ribs) and I went to hook up the lead by the ribs & OMG almost fell over because he had the nicest chest & abs I have seen in a long time!!He was  RIPPED!!! He was 46 yrs old but had the body of a 22 yr old! I gotta tell you, I enjoyed every minute taking care of such nice "eye candy"! Nothing dirty or anything like that...just some amazing biceps, abs & chest . I don't get to see that at home & rarely get to see it at work so it was a treat to see. Oh, do I sound bad saying that??? Why, yes, yes I do, don't I?! lol. I do love my job!! :)

Have a great weekend my dear friends!

Hugs to all!

Friday, November 25, 2011

Black Friday.....

Good morning girls!

 Black word...UGGH!! I am not a Black Friday kind of girl & there really is nothing that would ever drag me out of bed in the wee hours of the morning to deal with crowds of rude people just to get something that they have maybe 6 of in stock. No thank you! I think I did Black Friday shopping once in my life & I vowed never again. To all my Black Friday peeps who did go shopping..Kudos to you! I give you all so much credit for being so patient & tolerant. My husband left at 7am this morning to go & buy my Christmas gift. I want a camera from Sam's club but I don't think that's what he is going to buy today. He said he is going to be gone a while. I said how long?? He said 5-6 hrs. I said "You're going to Pittsburgh, aren't you?" He said no. I said "Buffalo?" He said "no, and you are very nosey" (lol...yes I am!) I said "Cleveland"? He said "yes". So I think he is going there to buy me a "Goldendoodle" dog. Our neighbors have one and I gotta tell you, she is the most adorable dog (outside of my handsome boy of course (my dog Toby)) I have ever seen! I want to put her in my car & take her home!! (lol, I wouldn't do that...just sayin) He knows how crazy I am about this dog & he has been itchin for me to give the OK for him to get another dog. This is my prediction. I know my hubby pretty well & I hope he wouldn't be stupid enough to drive to Cleveland to pick up a camera. It would be cheaper to ship it than drive there to get it.

So on to the weight issue. (HEAVY SIGH) I'm still up, about 5# according to my scale. I'm am sick with disgust! I walked for almost 3 miles yesterday with my sister & was in total control of my eating too. I took my food scale & measuring spoons & weighed & measured everything that I put in my mouth & I took no seconds on anything. The food was absolutely scrumptious too! My mom is a fabulous cook & her turkey & stuffing & homemade gravy was  sooo sooo good! It always is! Didn't get chunky eatin carrot sticks & celery growing up. lol. I haven't weighed in at WW for 2 weeks & it has become a slippery slope that I must get off of! I am back on the straight & narrow but the damage is done so I will weigh in tomorrow morning as usual and take my "lumps" & move forward. No sense in wallowing in a pity party over it. I made some poor choices over the past 2 weeks and unfortunately, it has caught up with me. The part that bums me out is that I worked so hard to get into the 170s & now I am back in the 180s....not the high 180s, the low 180s, but still.....(sigh again) Its such a  battle...and one that I am going to have to deal with my entire life. Oh well, it is what it is....I'm done complaining/venting.....I'm moving on. Today is a brand new day and it is sunny & beautiful here in Pennsylvania so I am gonna get a nice 3 mile walk in and track my food intake closely like I was doing before. Back on the wagon......

I hope you all had a nice thanksgiving with your families! I have a wonderful family & am truly blessed! I count each of you among my blessings too so thank you for your support & friendship. It means the world to me!

Hugs to all~

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Good morning! Sunday Nov 20, 2011

Hello friends!

Tell me, where has November gone? I feel like i have lost this month, weight loss wise & it is making me kinda sad. I feel like this past week was so challenging for me to stick to my WW plan & I am up a couple of pounds as a result. (sigh) My sisters and I went to a craft show in Cleveland, OH yesterday so I didn't get a chance to weigh in & go to my WW meeting, which I really missed. I love my friends there & the support I receive from my leader Pam & the receptionist Nancy. They are gems!! I am back on the wagon today after a very long week. I feel unfocused & I'm not sure why. I think its the upcoming  holidays. I am stressed out that just about every Friday in December, I have a Christmas party to go to. The stressful part is, I have my weigh in on Sat. mornings. This week I have to contend with thanksgiving, which because my sister, me & my dad are all following it, we are making it "ww friendly" so I'm not too worried about that. Next Fri (Dec 2nd) I have a Xmas party at our medical directors home which will be a food & drink fest I'm sure. I don't want to be anti social & not go but I don't want to eat all of that fattening food either. I am not working that day so I plan to weigh in at WW Friday am instead of my usual Saturday morning & I will just sit in on the meeting at my usual time. It will make going to the party more enjoyable for me as I know I am going to want to have a drink & perhaps a few appetizers. I think I am going to take a fruit tray as my contribution. Then I have another party on Dec 16th that is our formal work Christmas party. It is at a very nice hotel & is dinner & dancing so I plan to go to that & just not weigh in on Saturday morning, unless I can swing something with my boss where I can weigh in on Friday morning before coming to work. Can you believe that I am stressing so badly over all of this? Oy!! Starting in December, pretty much every day is booked by surgeons that we work with where they have lunch catered in. I have to say, I'm not too worried about that because I did just fine with it last year. I am just stressed about the parties more than anything. I don't want to allow December to go to the wayside with my weight loss efforts so I need to have a plan in place & ready to execute. What do you girls think? Any suggestions on a good way to handle all these festivities?? All feedback is appreciated!

So I had something really nice happen to me this week & I am going to share it with you. On Monday, I had to pick my daughter up from school for an orthodontist appt. When I went in to sign her out, the school secretary said to me that her daughter Elaina saw me at church the day before & said  "Boy Mrs Lojewski has lost a lot of weight!" . Totally made my day! Although I feel like I am at a standstill with my weight loss (my fault as I haven't been as focused) it is so wonderful to have positive feedback from people that they can see a difference. I would like to get into the 160s by the end of the year and although its not looking too promising at the moment, I know that come the new year I will be so much happier ringing in the new year almost 50# lighter. Its a great feeling & I never ever want to weigh over 200# again!!!

Have a wonderful weekend my friends!! Keep on keepin on!

Love & Hugs!

Monday, November 14, 2011

Good morning! A quick Monday morning update!

Good morning dear friends!

Well, the open house is over, the house is picked up and clean (yay!) and I am happy to report that my weekend was very successful! I had a great turnout to my open house & I love to see my customers face to face (many times I just drop their orders off at their house as many of them are at work) so its a nice time to catch up with them. I have been so blessed to have such wonderful & loyal customers over the past 11 years & I always do my best to be an informed beauty consultant to provide them with not only the very best products that they can have within 24 hrs but a knowledgeable beauty consultant as well. I know that had I not went with my best friend to that makeover session when I was 21 & learned the basics of good skin care, I would not be aging very well into my 40s. I see alot of women where I work and am astounded sometimes to see many of them my age or younger who are frumpy with gray hair & have not taken care of their skin. Its so important to take good care of your skin, regardless of whether you wear makeup or not. I am all about the "daily maintenance" & am willing to expend the time & effort. Its sad to say but true, people treat you nicer when you are put together. I see it all the time. So OK, didn't mean to get on my "skincare soapbox". Its just something that I am passionate about... helping women to look & feel their very best!

So food wise, well its confession time, not a good weekend with the diet. I don't know what is happening to me lately. I feel like I am just getting lax in my resolve & have been swayed really easily to the dark side of sweets & things I really shouldn't be eating. But today is a new day and I am off to a good start so I am forgiving myself & moving onward. I got on the scale & no damage was done so its all OK.

Well girls, I have lots to do today so I better get off the computer. I have to take my youngest dtr to the orthodontist at 2:30 then off to get pretty at the beauty shop for a cut & color at 6pm. Thank goodness, this hair is getting outta control!!! I love the length now (almost at my shoulders & I can make a small pony tail which I haven't been able to do for over 2 yrs because the back has been shorter than the front for so long) but the hair in the eyes has gotta go!!!! I also need to make an eye appt. I am in extreme denial about my declining eyesight. Its not terrible, just noticeably not as sharp as it used to be. (sigh) Dag nabbit! I'm not a young pup anymore! (heavier sigh!)

Have a wonderful day & week!

Love & Hugs to all

Friday, November 11, 2011

I have the "Bestest" Blogging Buds ever!!!

Good morning to all of you, my dear blogging friends!

I went back on my last post & re read all of your comments & I gotta tell you, it made me smile! I know I have said it a million times, but even though we have never met in person, I feel as if I have known you all, each of you, my entire life! I love & appreciate the support you all give, not only to me, but to each other. I feel like I have been on just about every diet known to man and it only took me 45 yrs to figure out that you not only have to have your "head in the game" & really "want" that weight loss more than anything, but you also need encouragement & support and you have all done that & sometimes so much more! So from the bottom of a very grateful heart, I want to thank each of you for your wisdom, encouragement and for being just a fantastic group of people! It takes me usually over an hour to read your posts & comment because of course I have to read everyone else's comments too! :) Sometimes, I don't have that much time to reply so I appreciate that you all don't "shun" me from the group when I am not able to comment. I do try to get to everyone's blogs & comment within 48hrs but sometimes, as you all know, life happens & it doesn't happen. So I just want you to know what a blessing you all are in my life! Thanks for being wonderful you!

I am having my big annual Mary Kay Holiday Open House this weekend so I have been busy cleaning & preparing for it. I have been with Mary Kay Cosmetics for over 11 years now, 8 of them were in a  management position which I retired from the beginning of this year so that I could focus on my weight loss goals. When I joined, I weighed 166 and over the years I became so focused on my business (which wasn't a bad thing because I earned 4 free cars as well as made a substantial amt of money doing it....and it was fun!) that I ballooned to 218.5# in March of 2010, my highest non pregnant weight. I was miserable & got to the point of depression & decided that I had to do something for me. It was a big decision to retire, but I have no regrets because I am about 10# away from being 166 again. Money buys choices, not happiness. I have zero regrets and the best part is, I still maintain my personal business and I have some of the most fabulous & loyal customers ever, so this is my once a year sale to thank them for their business, and believe me, they look forward to it! I usually start getting calls in Oct asking when it will be. So I made a batch of chocolate chip cookies as well as some salted peanut chew bars (taste like a payday bar...they are amazing!) and I just have a few other things to set up and I will be ready to roll. If you don't hear from me over the weekend, you will know why. Its gonna be pretty crazy but I love it!

I hope you all have a wonderful day today & a great weekend! We got snow last night & it is sticking! Uggh! Oh well, it is pretty to look at. Just gets a little old come January.

Love & Hugs to all of you!

Monday, November 7, 2011

Good morning!!!

Good morning girls!

I am sure you are all scrathcing your heads saying to yourselves "OMG, Sherri is blogging today!" lol. Today is a day off from work but I have so much to do around the house it isnt funny! My husbands aunt died about 1 week ago (she was 85) and her daughters, Shirley (lives here in Erie), Patty (from Michigan) & Debbie who calls herself Jesse (okie dookie...whatever!) is from Wisconsin called the other night asking if they could stop for a visit. So you know what that means...I gotta scramble to clean the house & make something for dessert to entertain. My tendonitis is really acting up lately so its been hard to be on my feet alot which makes things more difficult. These darned feet of mine!!! I am going to make an apple pie (I make the yummiest apple crumb pie....just sayin! hee hee!) and I will put on a pot of decaf coffee & thats all she wrote. I need to dust & vacuum the downstairs which is a huge chore (why cant I have a cleaning lady again??? I had one for about a year a few years back & can I tell you, it was the best money I ever spent!). I really dont enjoy cleaning (who does, right?) but I do love a nice clean house ! I have a mandatory meeting at work tonight too at 6:30 pm so gotta run & do that too. Oy! No day off for me!!! Ok, do I sound like I am whining???  well yes, yes I am!!! hahaha!  Can you tell I have had my morning coffee? I am full of it today! hee hee!

So I am going to make this short & sweet. I hope you are all doing great & are having a skinny start to your week. I feel great today (outside of the feet) & the scale looked great this morning which started my week off on a good note. I am going to try to eat more whole foods & keep processed foods to a minimum. I really think that eating clean & exercise are the secrets to success for me. I always seem to have a good week when I eat well & move more.

Have a Happy Monday!!
Love & Hugs to you!


Saturday, November 5, 2011

Nov 5, 2011~ Weigh in Day!

Hello friends!

Sorry to not have blogged in such a long time again. I tell you, my life feels like its just way too busy & when I get home, I am exhausted! I am an RN in the Recovery Room at an ambulatory surgery center & I LOVE my job but it is very physically demanding & at the end of an 8 hr day, I'm whooped! I worked in the Pre- Op unit yesterday (Fri) & can I just tell you, it was chaos!!! OMG!! No sitting down whatsoever & super busy! I did get to leave at 2:45 instead of 3:30pm which was a bonus but I went home & collapsed & my feet were in misery. (sigh) I'm not a "young pup" anymore .

I don't think that I have posted in over a week (I know, I know, I'm sorry!!!) & last Sat at weigh in I had a small gain of .6. It wasn't justified as I had a great week & I even exercised. The best part was, I didn't get mad or discouraged. I just took the "hit" & moved forward & I am happy to report that this week, I lost 1.4# & am at my lowest weight yet of 176.6!!! Yay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am 26.4# away from goal!!!! Can you believe it???!! I am so excited to see that there is a pot of gold waiting for me at the end of the rainbow! My size 14 Levis that I bought at a consignment store a couple of weeks ago are getting looser on me and I cant wait to go out & buy a pr of size 12s. Now THAT girls is gonna be a day when I will be doing the "happy dance"! My sister got back from France on Tues of this week & she LOST 3.8#!!!! Isn't that awesome?! She is in a new decade of weight & she is looking so good! I am so proud of her & so excited for her too. I think it really gave her the boost she needed to get started losing again. She said they did very little snacking between meals & did alot of walking. She said the people in France are thin & they don't eat junk food. I think that all the processed food we have access to in the states is one of the biggest problems that America has. All that crap not only makes us feel like crap but it makes us look like crap! Good things in = good things out! I am going to try to eat more whole foods this week & exercise more & see what happens. I have given mys sister almost all of my 1x clothes that don't fit and I just gave her a leather coat that is too big for me to wear now. I had a smaller leather that I bought (on sale)  but was never able to wear because it was too tight but now, it fits like a glove! I feel so wonderful! Anybody who says they are happy being fat is a BIG FAT LIAR because there is NO BETTER FEELING than the feeling of losing weight. We took a 2 1/2 mile walk at the local High school track tonite as it was a sunny beautiful crisp fall day,. Tomorrow is supposed to be just as nice & even warmer so I plan to walk some more. Rose is going to jazzercise at 7:30 am. We have church at 10am & I just wouldn't have the time to shower & be ready in time so I am not going.

I ordered the Natures Hollow preserves in Raspberry & Mountain Berry as well as some of the coconut flour too. I cant wait til they arrive, especially the jam.

Well, that's all that's been happening with me. I am going to try to catch up with the blogs over the weekend to get myself back in the loop.

Miss you all & hope you are having a great skinny day!!!!

Hugs to all~

Thursday, October 27, 2011

Good morning!

Good Morning to all my dear friends!

I was excited to see that I have 40 followers now...yay! Guess I better start writing more often and share some inspiring stuff now.

Life has been good but so busy & I just feel exhausted these days! I've been so tired lately & not sure why. Perhaps the fact that its getting dark earlier could be factoring into the equation. My WW leader Pam suggested a product that she uses (and sells) called "greens". It is from the "It Works" product line and it is the nutritional equivalent of 8 servings of fruits & vegetables. She said it has really helped her in the energy dept. I read the ingredients & there is nothing in it that would interfere with what I currently take medication wise,  it looks like all natural ingredients, so I decided to give it a try. Pam is like the energizer bunny & will work a full day as a teacher, then either teaches a WW class in the evening or goes to jazzercise. I want that kind of energy....I'm only 45 & shes 58. You add this powder to a bottle of water or to any drink of your choice & use it 2x day. I will keep you posted on how I feel. My order is on its way & I am anxious to start taking it. Not sure if it has any sugar in it for my BFC buddies, but I can check on that too if you are interested in knowing.

I am feeling really great lately & I think its because of the almost 42# that are gone from my body. It is amazing to me how much better I feel about myself. I LOVE the fact that I no longer have to wear anything from the Women's Dept and I no longer have a "W" after my size. Its a good feeling to go clothes shopping and I cant wait until I will be sporting a size 12...and then a 10, and maybe, just maybe even an 8!!! Its really a stretch to think of being in an 8 but Rosalie & Amber did it so why cant I??? My ultimate goal was 150 but I think I want to go a bit lower than that. Right now, I am focused on 150 and when I get there, I plan to evaluate where I am size wise & go from there. 150 is the upper end of my goal weight & I would like to have some wiggle room. I was talking with my hubby last night & we were discussing my upcoming surgery next fall to have my scar removed/tummy tuck. He said he supports me 100% in whatever I decide to do. I told him I want to know what it feels like to live in a thin body because I have never known that feeling. I think that's why I don't want to stop at 150. I'm short, only about 5'4 1/2" so I don't have height on my side. It will be interesting to see what I look like when I lose these next 27#.

Yesterday at work, one of my co workers brought in these heavenly cookies that she makes. They are almond flavored with a raspberry jam in the center & a glaze drizzled on top. There was one left & she asked me if I wanted it...I told her no thanks. She made the comment that I have great will power. I told her that losing weight is more important to me than that cookie. That is a change in thinking for me & it has taken me a long time to get to this point in my life because before, I would have eaten it without thinking about it whether I was on a diet or not. Progress, for sure!

Well girls, I'm done rambling. Thanks for listening!

((Hugs)) to all!!

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Happy Sunday!! Oct 23,2011

Hello to all my friends!

Did you think I fell off the face of the earth again? Well, I didnt but my computer did! Seems the old system decided to crash on us and we had to buy a whole new hard drive. Needless to say, hubby has been trying to transfer all the files from the old system & it has been nothing short of big ones! OMG, yesterday he was so grumpy because he spent hrs on the phone trying to get things straightened out. Not fun! Anyways, Im back & I have missed you all!!!! I feel like I have been so out of the loop not being here. I promise to try to get myself up to speed with all of your blogs.

Well, yesterday was weigh in day and I am happy to say that I am down again. Nothing earth shattering, only .8# BUT it is going down and my weight was 177.4 yesterday. Gotta tell you girls, I havent weighed this little in such a long time...I would say easily about 14 yrs. Crazy crazy stuff but I couldnt be happier! Looks like I need to retire my jeans again & start wearing the 14s more regularly. I have had numerous commnets that they are way too big on me, but man, are they comfortable!!! The size 14 Levis are a perfect fit but after wearing them all day, they fell a little snug & I would rather be comfy. Anyways, Christopher & Banks was having their friends & family sale where the entire store is 50% off. I went through my closet & packed up all the clothes that no longer fit me and gave them (3 big bags overflowing) to mys sister Rose but now I am left with a very limited wardrobe. 3 pr of jeans & about 15 tops. Thats it, so I decided to invest in a new pr of dress slacks & I love Christopher & Banks brand. They fit me great & are comfy to boot. Bought a nice pr of black dress slacks in a size 14 and a really cute sweater w/ a blouse attached. cute!! I contemplated getting the slacks in a size 12 also but opted to just get 1 pr for now. I wish I would lose  faster, but Im a "slow & steady" kind of girl & its alright with me. Shopping for clothing is becoming fun again &  I cant wait til I can shop at Talbots again. LOVE their clothes!!! SO classy!

Hope all is well with you girls! Its beautiful & sunny here so I am headed out for a walk now. I have a pot of chicken & brown rice soup on the stove for dinner...yummy!

Miss you all!

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Good morning! Thursday Oct 13,2011

Good morning friends!

Lots to do today so just a quick post here this morning. My week of vacation is flying by and I haven't accomplished anywhere near what I wanted to get done this week. Gotta get my tail in gear!!

Hubby and I went up to Niagara Falls, Canada yesterday on a day trip to celebrate our 18th anniversary (which is this coming Sunday Oct 16th). It was rainy & cool & we cut our trip short (only spent 4.5 hrs there) because it really started raining. We played a bit at the casinos & donated about $80. arrgh! I really don't enjoy gambling because I cant get over the thought that I could use the money toward groceries or something like that but oh well, it was fun playing video blackjack & we know when to say when & leave. WE got home about 4:30, picked up the girls & took them to Olive Garden for dinner. My oldest had a really hard time with the menu as she is super picky. My youngest was in her glory with all the menu choices. They are like day & night in so many ways. Anyways, I had soup & salad & it was delish! I had the zuppa tuscono (1 cup) and they brought me the lower calorie salad dressing on my salad & 1 1/2 breadsticks(I love to dip it in my soup!) . I couldn't finish it all and I stayed within my points allowance for the day which was great. The scale is looking good this week so fingers crossed, it will keep on going down. I have been exercising daily (except for yest but we walked alot) & I think that really does make a difference. I want to go to jazzercise but I am a bit intimidated by it all & Im afraid I wont be coordinated enough to do the moves. I never took a dance class before in my life & it looks very "dancy" to me. I will wait for my sister to go with me to the trail class. Until then, looks like its gonna be walking & my exercise tapes for the rest of the week.

                                              Here are a few pics from our trip to the Falls.

                                                                 Me & the hubs....


I have noticed my face & upper body are really getting alot thinner. Have a great rest of the week &" keep on keepin on" girls! We are getting there!

P.s on a side note~ I want to order some of the Natures Hollow sugar free jams but not sure what flavors are the best. If you use them, would you please chime in & tell me what flavors are your favorite?? Thanks! We cant buy them in the stores up here in PA so I have to order them online. I trust all of my "buds" taste buds! :)


Sunday, October 9, 2011

Sorry I havent been posting lately....

Good evening friends!

Wow! What a week! I am exhausted! I feel like since Friday, my life has been a blur. I will get you all up to snuff with me if you are interested. I worked 4 days this past week & it seems like i go to work, come home, cook supper & then pack my lunch for the next day & start all over again. But I am off this entire upcoming week and I am rather excited about it! I have so much to do around the house so I am hoping to make some headway with getting some fall cleaning done. The weather has been fantastic...sunny & beautiful every day & they are forecasting great weather up until Thurs. YAY!

So OK, last was crazy! We had a party with the girls from work at one of the girls cottages on the lake. I live in Erie, PA and we are blessed to have beautiful Lake Erie and a beautiful peninsula that is 14 miles long that has beaches, walking trails and it is truly one of my most favorite places to visit. So peaceful & serene & a great place to clear your head. So anyways, it was a sleepover & many of the girls from work were going to do that. I opted to just go for dinner & stay to chat for a while. I left around 10pm. The girls I work with are very close knit and they do alot together. I have worked there about 1 1/2 yrs and although they are such a  great warm & fuzzy group of nurses, I still just don't feel like I am completely a part of the inner circle. But don't get me wrong, I love them all & love to spend time with them. So we watched the sun set (it was spectacular!) and then went in for dinner. OMG! It was soooo good! Fresh breaded perch from lake erie that one of the gals hubbies caught, homemade macaroni & cheese, a shrimp & rice casserole, salad, fresh fruit, was delish! Then Saturday was weigh in day but I opted not to get on the scale this week because I did indulge at the girls night out party the night before. I didn't want to miss out on enjoying the wonderful food so I opted to pass p the scale this week. So I stayed for the WW meeting then my sister got free tickets to a huge annual event at our convention center called "For Women Only" and OMG, did we have a blast!!! We were there for over 4 hrs and we were tasting wine slushies, all kinds of yummy foods & there were over 160 vendors from tupperware to health clubs to you name it. We decided that we needed to walk off the calories we consumed so we did 2.5 miles that evening. I tell ya girls, my sister is one of my bestest buddies! We have so much fun together!! So then this morning, 3:30am I wake up to use the bathroom & then cant fall back to sleep. arrgh! I was up til 6:30 am tossing & turning! The alarm went off at 7am & hubby said "are you getting up for church"? I told him to go to the early mass & that I would take the girls to a later mass so I could sleep a little longer. Why is it that darned alarm always goes off when you fall back to sleep?! So we went to mass then came home & changed & off & running again to a double header softball game for my daughters high school fall ball team. Got home at 5pm, threw some food down the hatch & off & running again @ 5:30pm to take my daughter to a friends for a sleepover & then to walk with my sister again. We are taking advantage of the beautiful weather & walking as much as possible & as much as our feet will allow us to. So far, so good! :)

So here I sit, almost 10pm and I finally have time to blog. Weight wise, I feel great. The scale didn't say anything new, it was up just a smidge this morning but I'm not getting excited over it. I had a great on plan day & the exercise component has been an added bonus in that I do feel so much better. my sister & I are going to try out Jazzercize. They had a vendor booth at the women's expo & they are offering unlimited classes until the end of the year for $50. They do 30 mins of cardio & 30 mins of strength training. We are gonna give it a whirl. My ww leader does it and she loves it! We need to do something over the winter & I think this will be a good fit. I was going to go back to the gym but I still just cant seem to come to terms with paying that $125 enrollment fee. they had a booth at the expo and it said if you join this weekend they would waive the enrollment fee. I thought, wow, that's a prayer answered but after talking to one of the staff, when he found out I was a former member, he said I would be exempt from the discount. I gotta tell ya, that just pissed me off! This gym is so unwelcoming to rejoining members that I just don't think that I want to give them my business anymore. I say shame on them for being that way! I told him I had to quit for medical reasons & he said that they frown upon people who quit their memberships. Can you believe it???!!

Holy cow, did I just ramble or what!!?? Sorry girls! So that's whats happening here. My goals for the week are to eat clean and exercise every day. I am hoping for a nice loss on the scale this coming week. I feel hopeful!

I hope you are all doing great!
((HUGS)) to all.....


Saturday, October 1, 2011

I have FINALLY arrived in a NEW DECADE!!!!!

Good evening to all my "peeps"!

Hope your week went well. Mine did and I am pleased as punch to tell you all that I have FINALLY OFFICIALLY arrived in the 170s according to WW scale as of today Oct 1st!!!!!! I feel like I have been fighting to get into this decade but my weight on my scale this morning (no clothing) was 178.5 and on WW scale (w/ clothing) I weighed in at 179.8. It was kinda funny because all the staff were huddled around my computer this morning because they know how hard I have been trying and what a struggle it has been to break through this LONG plateau in the 180s. I will tell you girls though, I will NEVER revisit my old weight again!! I had my friend Melissa take some new pics of me today and I can most definitely tell a difference, especially in my face, legs & belly areas. For some reason, the computer distorts my photos a bit & they look worse than they are because when I print them out, they look normal & much better. Not sure why that is, but I will post the new pics for you all to see.

As we embark on a new month and are getting very close to the start of the holidays and then the end of this year, I have been reflecting on where I have been this year and how proud I am of myself for sticking to this plan for over 9 months. Only when we "hang in there for the win" do we get to reap the rewards of our perseverance & hard work. In years past, I have never had the patience to hang in there for the win. I wanted the weight off "now" and it was never fast enough for my liking, so I would just quit after losing about 10# (or less)and then found myself gaining all of it back & then some & before I knew it, I was staring at a number on my scale that brought me to tears....218.5!! Dear Lord, I will never forget that day! It was last March 2010. I can remember asking myself "how did you allow this to happen to yourself?" I lost about 5# then decided to get serious last December and although it has had its ups & downs, it has been worth it!! It has become a NON NEGOTIABLE area of my life and I am bound and determined to finish this through this time!!! Period!!!

So even though I fell a little short of my Sept goal of losing 5# ( I lost 3.4# in Sept) a new month is here and once again, my goal for the month is to lose 5 more pounds. I'm just gonna continue to do my best & keep plugging away!

After I stepped off the scale this morning at WW, I said to myself now I am only 10# away from being in the 160s! the 160s!!!! I haven't seen those numbers since 1993!!! My BMI also changed today. I went from being OBESE to being OVERWEIGHT. My BMI is 29.8 now. Pretty exciting considering that it was 36 when I started this journey.

So that's my "thoughts du Sherri" today. Thanks for listening to me babble. Sorry I wasn't on the blogs much this week. I worked every day since Monday and man was I exhausted when I got home. I found myself crawling into bed at 9:30 pretty much every night.

Wishing you all a great start to this brand new month!!! Its a new beginning !!!

                                              This is me at about 218.5#....YIKES!!!!
                                                     Oct 1, 2011    179.8#   Down 38.7#

Monday, September 26, 2011

Thank you to all my peeps!

Good morning dear ones!

Thank you for all the birthday wishes. I had a nice day out with my sisters and my lunch at the cheesecake factory was fabulous! I had the lunch portion of the Cobb salad and I asked for a takeout container before I started eating and I put half of it in the container & ate the other half. I did have a piece of coconut chocolate cheesecake. I only ate 1/2 of it at the restaurant and I took the rest home and finished it in the evening. It was pretty much what I ate for the entire day except I did have 2 slices of Trader Joe's whole wheat sprouted bread toasted and a small banana. I did have a taste of each of my sisters ccheesecake's too. My one sister had a turtle cheesecake & my other sister had a Hershey's chocolate one that was nothing shore of a slice of heaven!! I think I had 3 bites of that one! So the scale only said I did a tiny bit of damage...only 1/2# so that's will be gone tomorrow. Oh and on a side note, can I just tell you, our waiter Jose was one hot little tamale! He looked like Mario Lopez and he was adorable and super attentive to us.My sisters made sure he knew it was my birthday and he brought my cheesecake out with Happy Birthday to You written around the plate and a candle in it and some of the workers sang happy bday (which wasn't necessary....I'm not into that whole singing to me on my bday thing) but it was sweet of him to do that. Needless to say, he got a great tip too! But no birthday kiss.....sheesh! What gives!??  My sisters were calling me a cougar. hahahaha!

Anyways, I want you to know that I do truly appreciate you all taking the time to post birthday wishes. I was a little disappointed that my 2 best friends never sent a card or even called me. Made me sad because I don't forget their bdays. It warmed my heart to read your comments this morning, so thank you so much!!!! My hubby bought me a $50 gift certificate to my favorite day spa and he bought me a dozen of red roses that are lovely. He's been very good to me and I am grateful to have someone who loves me like he does. We have had our problems over the years and were on the brink of separation in December of last year. Its a long story, but we have reconciled and I am thankful that we were both willing to work things out. We will be celebrating our 18th anniversary in about 2 weeks. We watched our wedding video over the weekend and it was so neat to watch that day again. Gosh, I was a young pup but I was pretty skinny. (weren't we all?!) My hubby hasn't changed much over the years. Hes still thin like he was back then but a little less hair and its gray now. We also watched a video of the kids when they were little. They watched it with us too. Made me realize how fast they grow. They were such precious little girls when they were little and they are growing up to be beautiful young ladies. I am blessed indeed!

                                    My sisters   Chris & Rose (my bestest buddies)

                                    My Chocolate Coconut Cheesecake~ YUMMY!!!

So on the weight loss front, I'm back on the straight & narrow. I have been trying to eat only when I am physically hungry (tummy growling) and I have been trying to eat 1/2 portions. I did this about 10 yrs ago through a christian weight loss program called weigh down workshop and I lost about 35# in 6 months. I never felt deprived because you can eat whatever you are hungry for. You just learn to turn your focus away from the food & back on God. I feel like I need a "spiritual tune up" so I am incorporating this with my WW and I feel like its a good fit for me at this time.

Thank you all for being such dear friends even though we have never met in person, I feel like I have known you all my life!! I am grateful for each one of you!!! Have a fantastic week!!!!!


Saturday, September 24, 2011

Some things that I have noticed....

Good afternoon girls!

Well, today was weigh in day and I was down but not as much as I would have liked. Its never enough, is it? Anyways, its down, even though it was only .8#. I am at 180.6. All I want is to be in the damn 170s....what the heck is it gonna take to get there??!! The girls at WW know how frustrated I am and the one receptionist/weigher Nancy said to me "you're down so lets be excited about that & you need to stop being so focused on getting into the 170s because when you stop stressing over it, it will happen". So you know what? That's what I am gonna do this week. I'm gonna stop stressing over it. I didn't meet my 5# goal for the month which was disappointing, but its OK. There will be bumps in the road on this journey. I lost 2.6# this month and I know next month will be better.

But as my title of this post says, there are some things that I have noticed that are really positive & I wanted to share them. I find that I am so hard on myself when I don't make my goals but there are things that are true "NON SCALE VICTORIES" that are worthy of our attention & I am going to start to do that more often when I want to beat myself up for not losing more. 

The first thing that I have noticed is that my back fat is way less than it was. Actually, there is only a little bit left. It was such a distressing thing to me because it is so gross to see all that back fat hanging over my bra. YUCK!  I can remember Rosalie telling me months ago that it will go away and it is and that makes me happy. :) Another thing that I have noticed is how my clothes are fitting. I am amazed at how well my jeans fit me now and it feels so good to put them on. I used to detest buying jeans because I could never find a pr that made me look good. I always had such a  big belly hanging over & it just showed in my jeans & I had to conceal it with a long shirt or sweatshirt but that is improving too. While I still wear a shirt that covers the tummy, I have noticed a pretty marked difference in how my pants look & feel. I cant wait to look down & not see this rumply old belly. And third, just recently I am amazed at how many people are noticing my weight loss. People at work have noticed and just this morning my sister, my best friend Laurie (who just joined ww this week) and another gal from ww all commented on the difference they can see, especially in my belly. I am a true apple shape with somewhat skinny legs so when the belly goes away, I may finally look proportionate.

So that's my thoughts for the day. Even though the scale isn't moving as fast as I would like, there are other little "jewels" that I am finding along the way that are reinforcements that my hard work IS truly paying off. I pulled out some old CDs & DVDs from a christian weight loss program that I did about 10yrs ago that I was very successful on & popped the CDs in & watched about 6 of the lessons yesterday. It is an easy plan to follow and I am using it in adjunct to WW & in the interim it helps you to turn your focus from food to God .
I am certainly not here to preach and I wont do that but the way I see it, God has shown me proof that he is working behind the scenes to heal me in many areas of my life and I think its only fair to take some time to give him back some thanks & praise. I feel like if you don't have faith, you don't have anything.

Well my friends, have a fantastic weekend! I am going to Trader Joe's & cheesecake factory with my sisters tomorrow for our monthly girls day out & I cant wait! I love being with my sissies! They are awesome!

p.s @ Kay~ I bought a bag of chili cheese fritos today & had some with lunch. Forgot just how doggone yummy they are! I portioned them out into snack sized baggies & locked them up in the cupboard so I wont have quick access to them in a moment of weakness. They do call my name from the cupboard. Glad my kids like them cuz I think they are gonna get some of the baggies in their bookbags during the week.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

I get by with a little help from my friends....

Good evening to all my wonderful friends!

Thanks so much for all the comments & support from my last posting. As I re read it, it sounded pretty negative, which isn't like me to be that way but you get the gist of where my head was....not a happy camper. Anyways, just wanted to let you all know that I am feeling better and while the scale STILL hasn't moved this week even though I am doing all the right things and limiting sugar & carbs, I am hanging in there & continuing to keep on keepin on. I know that it will come off....I am just a very slow loser. To each one of you ...thank you for your wonderful words of encouragement! I have read & re read those comments & appreciate you all being there for me. This isn't easy but I do feel like I get by with a little (or maybe its a lotta) help from my friends! You are all simply the best!

I have decided as a bday gift to myself that I am going to rejoin my gym this weekend, maybe even as early as tomorrow. I have been  hesitant to go back because I am so afraid to pay all that money to rejoin and have my Achilles tendonitis act up again from stressing the tendons too much but I know that I need to increase my activity level so I think that I may try some water aerobics classes & maybe try a spinning class or gentle yoga. The gym that I am joining is the "Taj Mahal "of gyms and offers a wide variety of things to do. I am just so used to the elliptical & the "gym" part that I never utilized the other things so perhaps I will do that this time around to mix things up a bit. I love this gym because it is immaculate & adults only & people of all ages, sizes & fitness levels so I never felt weird being there. The trainers there are fantastic & always made me feel welcome & always called you by name. Somethings gotta give here girls so I am biting the bullet & going back! I always felt so good after exercising and I realize that although it is $59/month, I am worth it!!! I look at the people on the biggest loser show & they all join gyms when they go home from the ranch because they know it is an important component of weight loss. I cant say that I love to exercise but when I was in the groove & going 3-4x week, I did find myself enjoying it and the stamina I felt from it was worth it. Wish me luck! I pray this is the missing component to my weight loss lately.

Well, thanks for listening to me babble tonite. I don't feel terribly inspired lately so sorry this isn't a great inspiring post.

 Hope you are all having a great week!

Love & Hugs to each you!

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Feeling a little.....

Good morning friends!
Wow! Just realized I haven't posted in 10 days! Yikes! Shame on me but life has been busy and I haven't been online much at all lately.

Well, Saturdays weigh in day came and I am sad to say, that da*# scale said that I GAINED!!! Arrgh!!!! It was only a tiny bit, .6 which is only a little over 1/2# but still. I have been sooooo good and tracking what I eat and I exercised 4x last week to boot! I spoke to my WW leader Pam about it during the meeting & said that it wasn't a justified gain & she said for me to leave my phone # at the desk & she would call me. Well, she called me on Sat like she said she would and we talked about things that I can do to get the scale moving downward again. So I am going to shave off 2 points from my daily food intake & cut back on fruit a bit & see what happens. I think that perhaps the fruit intake might have something to do with it but I don't know. All I know is, I am so fricken tired of being in the fricken 180s I could SCREAM!!!! Its been over 3 months!! ABSOLUTELY RIDICULOUS!!!  So today, actually this week, I am feeling a little down & discouraged because I have been working so hard & not getting any results. I refuse to quit and I will continue to stay true to the program but I am going to taper back my fruit to only strawberries & raspberries for a while & really watch my portion size of them. I truly dont feel like I have been out of control at all though but obviously, somethings isn't working for me to be stuck this long.

My birthday is this coming Sunday and I wanted so much to hit that 5# mini monthly goal by my bday. I need to lose 2.6# this week to do that & the way my track record has been, not sure what it will say come Saturday. I am so sick & tired of being sick & tired!!! (sigh) So chime in girls, what do you think would help me to get unstuck & into the 170s?

I hope you all are having a great week!


Saturday, September 10, 2011

A New Day....a New DECADE!!!!!

Hello to all!!

Well, today was weigh in day and I am posting a picture of what my scale said prior to my weigh in at Weight Watchers this morning. Needless to say, I was doing the happy dance because I have been waiting to see this number for MONTHS!!! :) I havent seen the 170s in about 18 years!!!! THIS IS A DAY TO CELEBRATE MY FRIENDS!! Margaritas are on me tonite!!!

The sad part is, when I weighed in at Weight Watchers this morning, their scale said 180.8. Arrghhh!! Those darned clothes!!! I tell you, if I could weigh in naked there I would!! Lol....well, not really. That wouldn't be a pretty sight at all!! Anyways, I know the truth and the truth is, I have entered a NEW DECADE ....the long awaited 170's!!!! Yiiiippppppeeeeeeee!!!!! ITs a GREAT DAY!!!!

I think what made the difference for me has been exercising. I walked 2 miles 3x this week and rode the stationary bike for 35 minutes one night. My food intake has been good for the most part and I feel so focused on my goal which certainly adds to the equation because you get out what you put in. I am going to do a repeat of this week again and see what happens at next Saturdays weigh in. I know their scale is gonna be "officially" in the 170s next Sat!  The best part is, I am getting close to achieving my Sept. goal of 5# lost. I need to see 178.8 on the scale to hit it, and that's only 2# away. I know I can & will make it happen!

I bought a new pair of black jeans tonight at Kohl's. They are Lee's slimming brand and they are straight leg which is what I love. I really don't like the flares unless I am wearing something with a heel. For some reason, they are cut really small because I had to buy a 16 and they are still a bit snug. But we all know that every pair is cut differently and that nobody but us sees the number on the tag... and that can be cut off! I believe in buying a pair of pants in a size that will be flattering and not make you look like you are stuffed in a sausage casing ,which we all know  is never a good look. They are gonna look fantastic when I have another 10# off...just sayin. I think they make me look pretty darned good! (butt & gut look pretty skinny in em!) I will post a picture of myself in them when I hit 169....that's a promise!

Well, I hope you are all having a great weekend! I feel like I got nothing accomplished today. All I did was run, run, run all day and I am beat! The weekends just go by way too fast!

Enjoy the rest of your day and thanks for listening & sharing my excitement.

Wednesday, September 7, 2011

SOOOOO EXCITED I could burst!

Hello friends!!!

Omigosh!! I am so excited I almost cant stand myself!! Many of you know from a previous post a little while back that I spoke of a horrific appendectomy scar that I have on my belly that has haunted me since I was  child. I was only 3 yrs old when my appendix ruptured & I was rushed to emergency surgery and I was left with a scar that is nothing short of scary...seriously! I know that this is something that was out of my control & I was only a little girl when it happened & in 1969, it was the best they could do but It has been something that I have wanted to have fixed for a long time.

So, I have a couple of moles that need removed from my head & face so I made an appt with my plastic surgeon who did my breast reduction 8 yrs ago, to have him remove the moles & I decided to have him look at my scar & see if it can be fixed. I was so nervous to  have him look at it, even though I know he has seen worse things for sure but coupled with my untoned belly and the scar....well, you get my drift. Not to mention, hes not too hard on the eyes to look at. Anyways, he was so sweet to me & made me feel so at ease & not embarrassed to show him the scar & he said that I am a perfect candidate for a tummy tuck and that without a doubt he can fix it. Then he said, and this is the really exciting part, he said he thinks he may be able to get it paid for by insurance because it is a past traumatic surgical scarring issue. He said that he could actually do the tummy tuck on me right now ,which shocked me because I feel like my belly is still so big but I told him I want to lose another 30# before we proceed and he agreed that the closer I am to an ideal body weight the better my results will be. He has over 25 yrs of experience & is one of the most highly respected plastic surgeons in the area. He wants to see me in 3 months to check on my weight loss progress and they are going to take pictures of my belly & scar to submit to insurance to see if they will justify paying for it. He was so good to me when I had my breast reduction surgery & I know that he knows how to word things so that hopefully they will consider complete or partial payment. I'm scared but so excited too because I have dreamed of having a flat belly without a scar on it for as long as I can remember. I cant believe it, but I think that the ball is rolling girls!!!! yikes.....with a big smile!

I have to tell you, he made my day!! I feel so excited, motivated & a new resolve to work harder to get to my goal faster because I have a great reward to look forward to! I know that this surgery isn't a walk in the park & it is very painful but I am ready to move forward with this. I told him that I feel so vain for wanting to have this done & he told me that by no means am I vain at all for wanting to have it done. He said "you were a little girl & you had no control over this issue and you have had to live with the trauma of the scarring all of your life" he told me that I am very worthy of having this done & I shouldn't be embarrassed. I thought that was such a genuine comment & that there is nobody else I would ever consider to do this on me but him.

So I just wanted to share this excitement with you. Thanks for listening to me babble on & on about it. Its just a very big step for me because I have talked about it for years but never lost enough weight to make it happen....but now....well THIS IS MY TIME!!! Wooo hoooo!!!

Love & Belief to all of my skinny sisters!!