Good evening friends!!
I can hardly believe that it is December 30th! A New year awaits us in just 48 hours and as always, I approach every new year with great excitement for what will lie ahead in 2012! For the first time in a VERY LONG TIME, this new years eve will be one of celebration !. Every year on Dec 31st, it seems that I would find myself depressed and usually weighing about 10# more than I did 364 days prior. There were usually some tears shed and a vow to make the new year one where I would be thinner. For years & years I have literally OBSESSED about my weight. Well, this year, I feel I made some headway in the weight loss dept and even though I really haven't done anything spectacular weight loss wise since Halloween, I am down 40+# in 2011, I am in the mid 170s and I am wearing a size 14 MISSES comfortably. It is such an accomplishment for me as I cant remember the last time I sported a size 14. I didn't have one thing in my closet in a size 14. Everything was size 16, 16W, and 18 & 18W. I have since cleaned my closet and every last 16 & 18 have been donated or taken to consignment for sale. Its a GREAT feeling to purge my closet of those "FAT CLOTHES!!!" I NEVER EVER want to wear a sie 16 or 18 ever again and I vow to you all here & now, I never will again! Being a size 18 was such an unhappy place for me. I can remember getting dressed for my daughters first communion a few years ago and trying on umpteen outfits only to find that none of them looked good on me. It made me want to cry!!Although I am not at the weight or size I had hoped to be at the end of 2011, I am still going to celebrate where I am now and how far I have come this year. I have tackled depression and am emotionally so much better, and happier than I have been in years. Thank you wellbutrin! :) I am learning to be patient with myself and to forgive myself if I have a bad day or week instead of just throwing my efforts to the wind & giving up, as I have done MANY MANY times in the past. I have made the commitment to myself that I will get tot he finish line this time, and no matter what, I will never quit!! I am worth every effort and every penny spent to better myself & my health.
I went back to my health club to rejoin the other day. Because I have a slow thyroid & had a history of a hysterectomy , I had to have medical clearance from my Dr. to go back, but all the paperwork is in, the clearance is completed and I am ready to get back to exercising again and getting this last 27+# off! NO MORE DILLY DALLYING!!!!! So I have set a goal for myself and I am going to make a goal poster for myself and hang it in my office or perhaps on my fridge to remind me of where I am going . I was a sales director for Mary Kay Cosmetics for many years and I always told my consultants that without a goal, you are a ship out at sea floating with no port in sight.You have to have a plan and KNOW where you are going! I refuse to drift aimlessly any more!
So I am not going to rattle off a new years resolution to lose weight to you all. Instead, I am going to share with you the itinerary of my weight loss plan and the course of action I plan to take to get there. I will also share with you my "ships blog" (lol) along the way documenting my successes, struggles, and victories in my weight loss journey. I am going to make my Goal Poster this weekend and I will post a picture to share with you either tomorrow of Sunday. Its a new year, a time to start fresh! I am excited to embark on this journey and I invite each of you to accompany me and make your own "itinerary" of where you would like to go this year. We are all in this together and it is such a great blessing to have all of your encouragement & support!!!
So as we say goodbye to 2011 and welcome in 2012, lets all set our compasses for SUCCESS this year!! The only place that success comes before work is in the dictionary!!! Lets all get to work and make our dreams finally come true!!
Here's to the BEST year ever!!!!!! Happy 2012!!!!
Big Hugs to you all!!!