Well, thank goodness its Friday!! I worked all week & I need a day off to recover but so much to do with Christmas a week away! I am feeling better emotionally although I do get weepy in the evening so just trying to get that under control. Taking Wellbutrin 2x day now & it does take the edge off. My youngest daughter told me the other day that the only thing she wanted for Christmas was for me to be in the christmas spirit. Really made me feel bad that this has affected my kids but this depression is beyond my control. I told her I will do my best and that I am taking medicine to help me feel better. My husband has been great through all of this and to be honest,I dont know if I could have got through the death of my friends husband without him.
I have noticed one thing though...the antidepressant has taken my appetite away quite a bit since I have been taking it. I am 3# away from being in the 190's and I am so fricken excited about that!! I know the stress diet that I have been on the past few weeks is not the ideal way to lose but it has given me yhe push I needed to feel hopeful & to work harder to get there. I felt like I was "spinning in neutral"...I would lose & gain the same 3# it seemed but now with the 190s in sight, I am excited to press on & finally do it this year!!! I have not been following BFC for some time now due to all the stress & inability to focus with everything that has happened in the past month. I did go back to Weight Watchers with my sister (who has lost 17# since Sept!) because I wanted to continue to support her & she has been a great inspiration to me as well as a great support person & friend. She definitely has a soggy shoulder from all my tears but she just encourages me that every day will get better & that I can do this. I am going to continue my blog & I hope that you all arent disappointed in me but right now, this is what I feel is best for me to do right now. Anyways, I feel that no matter what plan we are following, we all have on common goal...weight loss!! Even though we have never met, I feel like you are all such dear friends & I love the support of my online "sisters" and I will continue to cheer each one of you on as you get skinnier & skinnier!
Well, I better get going & get some things done. Have a great day & weekend. My daughter wants to make cookies so that is what we are going to do!
Love to all!